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My Angels...

2010-01-03T06:35:00.000-08:00

Oh dear, it must be ages since I logged in blogspot, I attempted logging in more than thrice before I managed to remember the correct password. Haha.

It's a brand new year again! I hope this year will be a promising one for me. Last year had been really topsy turvy but I'm glad the trial I was put through had finally been over. I know I had been very selfish and did not spare a thought for the people around me. But I really did not regret the decision I had made, I know what I want for myself. I always tell myself I have to step out of my comfort zone, even if I had to fall hard, I make sure I will learn hard! On the other hand, Im not that bad afterall, of course I do still feel sorry for the people who love me especially my wonderful boyfriend.

Time will only tell the one who are really truthful and reliable and he fits all. I used to feel that his big love can be too suffocating at times but thinking through,will I be able to find someone like him again? Yesterday I joined his family to a "jia tok" and I seriously miss the times back then. We were all like a family so happily enjoying one another company.

I can only be a million thankful to his gracious family. They never once despised nor ignored me unlike the bunch of evil relatives I had. They are so forgiving and always had the door left open for me. Every family outings, they will definitely count me in. Tell me, arnt they all angels sent from above?

Thank you dear for taking care of me and never once left me. I really like the way we are now, giving one another space to do the things we like. I love you....

I'm Sorry...

2009-09-22T08:27:00.000-07:00

It must be months ever since I touched blogger again. Many unexpected things happened and it must had surprised everyone. Sigh! How should I describe the exciting yet bumpy ride I had? It was really a brand new experience for me, I was exposed to many things and there were a lot of responsibility that I need to hold. It was pretty tough at first as I'm so green to everything but I'm so thankful to have many to guide me along. I really learnt a lot of things and have built up my network from there ever since.

Not afraid to admit, I was carried away and allowed the lil tinge of freedom to hurt many closest people around me, especially him and as well as his family. I was guilty but never so much in the beginning. However as time goes by, I realised that they had never leave me despite the hurt I had made. It was purely a love that's unconditional! I know they had never blamed me but I felt so bad neglecting them the moment my life start picking up. When I needed you, you were there but when you needed someone, I was nowhere to be seen. I always thought my gratitude towards them was stronger than anything else but still...I was given into temptation made me the biggest sinner.

September 1st had just passed and it was supposed to be our 3rd Anniversary if it had wouldnt be for my selfishness, self-centreness and a moment of folly. Your inexsistence made me realised how important you are to me.

Thank you for lovin me and I'm really sorry...

You know you love me,as well as I do!

2009-02-24T10:05:00.000-08:00

Life is always full of uncertainities, one moment you are good, the other moment,it goes wrong. I had finally came to a point where I realise pushing the blames to my parents is no longer valid to me anymore.Im really neutral now. Though at times, I still do get upsat when people led a better life than me. My defination of a better life is not the many dollar signs that matter but the loving home that everyone look forward into heading too after a hard day at work or even just a day out with friends. My parents have 3 children but none are staying with them and something must really be really wrong. Though aunty and uncle treat me very nice, I still miss home afterall. I guess kor kor also feels that way. I really feel so sad for my brother. I really wish I could get my house quickly and let them shift in with me even how my mum oppose to it.

But nonetheless,im still vey grateful to dear. I am really sure God sent him to me, especially to help me up during my darkest period. Can you imagine 4 years in the same class but we had only spoken to each other for less than 10 times in school? And surprisingly,I never will imagine that he could make such a wonderful bf. He is always there to take my sudden mood swings and all the craziness that I myself cant take it. He did not even mind making commitments at such an early age and allow me to start making plans for our future such as ROM,getting a flat together and etc just for the sake of helping me get through the difficult times. Im sure most young man would be scared out of their wits already. I am also glad that he allows me to stay with him, squezzing the small bed with him. I didnt realise i have grown so dependence on him already. Everything I do or make in life,it involves him. Im already sharing part of my life with him. Dear once again,thank you for everything. But i really cant promise you that i will change to become a better tempered gf because PMS really very hard to avoid. I seek for your kind understanding.haha. Please try to add in some surprises to our relationship too because that's my weakness which eventually can help reduce my PMS for at least a while?hehe. I no need extravagent stuff, even a slip of paper saying I love you can brings a smile to me like during vday.I like that piece of note a lot. You get what i mean dear? And last but not least,I love you very much. :)

2 pieces of good news + vday celebration+happy active days with bf

2009-02-19T23:49:00.000-08:00

swimming at the new pool in SK. the slides are so scary.

after our swim,feeling so refresh.

me with light eye make up.looks weird.haha.
Fruits after our swim,healthy lifestyle.haha

Pulau ubin trip

Dear became "stronger" after eating the Tongkat Ali.hahaha.

me with my fav aloe vera..good for skin.

chilli padi!!!

fav lady fingers.

beautiful sea

dear bought for me my fav ferragamo incanto and i bought him lacoste in return for vday.

Vday celebration with ting and long ge.

Long ge and dear. They so boring,always talking about bikes and cars.

while the interesting ppl like ting and i, got better things to talk about.hehe

the bbq korean food. nt that nice but it was so enjoyable cooking.we 3 all so bad in reading chinese so ting take the orders for us.haha

Ting doing the makeover.while the guys chatted.

Chinese new yr

Dear with his cousins

my uncle and wife.

My little nyonya family.hehe. Look at my koko in her kebaya,so cantik.

Dear and i had a wonderful week cos we were doing so much of outdoor activities together. It was great spending time with him. Vday was also fun cos we had pretty ting and long ge with us.hehe.

2 pieces of good news are bestie found a job!!!Im so proud of her!and the best thing was,we start on the same day and our office are pretty near. But sadly we start and end at a different time. But better than nothing huh. hehe i miss her so much. gonna meet her next week.

2nd one was our IMC project was selected and we are no present next tuesday to the client. Plus we will all have free mp3s!!!!yoohooo...hehe.

Alright,got to go. Damn hungry now.bubbye!!!

Poly is over!!!!

2009-02-12T11:38:00.001-08:00

Boo!!!Just got back not long ago cos Josephine went to Double O.haha.ya u did not heard me wrong.I think its my 5th time in a club?Today was dear's last paper and he wanna celebrate his final year by drinking with his friends.It was supposed to be a "sausage" night but I kaypoh,insisted in following them so Im the only girl there.hehe.But nonetheless partying all night is still not my cup of tea.Im such a homely person!!I was hoping to see hot babes but it was such a dissapointment especially to all dear's friends cos it's the "mud" nightout.hahaha.Its quite racist actually so if you dont understand,then forget it.:p

anyhow,I enjoy myself to the fullest cos it was my first dance with dear,sexy one somemore.haha...Initially,i was so shy but very quickly I plucked up my courage. And most importantly, I finally clear things up with dear's friend whom we fought last year.We apologised to one another and everything is fine now.I guessed dear is right,im too sensitive.But im glad I had put my ego aside and apologised cos for a pure leo like me,I will never admit defeat.hehe.Im sure dear was happy too. :D And I thank his friend for sending me home.

Talking about dear's last paper today,mine was on Monday and I had COL on tuesday.I think I screwed the presentation la,im so nervous that i dont even know what am I talking about.haha.But Im glad i had a supportive group,TEAM UNO.Im seriously so proud to be part of them cos we always "clinched deals" from our clients.I can see so much potential in them,im sure they would be someone big in the future. I would also definately miss my NADIA!!She is my confidante and my bestest friend in poly.We are always supporting each other.I love her cos she is not a minah although she looks like one.hahaha."malay girl",my mother in law calls her that.

Meeting ting ting and long ge tmr.woohoo..so excited man. okay i need to turn in now if not i would not look fresh tmr...hehe..good night!

2009-02-08T05:03:00.000-08:00

Finally got the pictures from my cousin. I love all of them!hehe. Even the photo montage is so touching. Im really so happy that my cousin got married. And it even made me feel like marrying too.Went to my her house today and my aunt cooked mee sua with abalone for me.so happy!!!:D

grinning away cos fun is on the way

me preparing "yummy" fishballs for the groom and best man.hehehe

smiling so happily

The bride with her all her maids of honour

with the Lim sisters but my mum is missing. :(

my cute bf
trying to help out the groom.haha. papaya with pepper

lousy guy!!!

asking questions,every wrong questions,fine 50bucks.haha easy money.

reading a marriage vow in cantonese.
marching in with my cute niece and nephew.

my cousin in green was trying her best to let me get the flowers. both cousins wished me to get marry.haha.

boring!

2009-02-07T04:34:00.000-08:00

My lil maltese in his big helmet.haha.

3 most important man in my life;my bf,my dad and my bro

I love you dear!!!

Hi friends,im back. Had been rather tired of blogging these days. Probably because im busy with school?Everyday is like 10am to 10pm in school. However, that crazy period was finally over cos school is ending next week. Damn thrilled!:D And my group is choosen to present our project next week at COL. omg,I feel like dying now cos we are gonna present to the whole cohort of marketing.I used to be very brave and outgoing but I realised recently I had been keeping a lot to myself. I hate crowds and i prefer quiet moments.Maybe people do change when they aged.haha sounds like im so old already.

Dear and I had bought tickets to Hong kong.Feeling really excited.Im so glad that dear has relatives there so that they can take us round.And im so obsess with Hong kong dramas now especially The Gem of Life. I was glued to that drama cos it was Gigi Lai's last show.I love her so much.She is so pretty.If I were to do plastic surgery,I will definately used her as my reference.haha. Although it will be my 3rd time there,I will make sure I enjoy myself to the fullest with my dear bf.I want to buy clothes from H&M,eat the super big wanton and do lotsa shopping. Im also into Gossip girl now.I like how Blair dresses.I hope i can be a socialite too..hehe.

Valentine's is coming and Ting and I are planning to celebrate together with our bfs.So exciting right?I always love double dates.When I see my friends happily in love,I feel really happy for them.:)

Im at dear's classmate house now.I intented to study together with them but Im so not in the mood to study cos its my last paper next week so i couldnt be bothered.hehe.

I realised singaporeans now are getting richer.People at my age are already owning a car and most are supported by their parents. I wonder if my family is still well to do like before,will mummy buy me a car too? But kor kor always tell me that if i want something,buy it with my own money.Hopefully in 2 years time,i will get a flat and in 4 years time a car. That's my dream!

Why is it so hard on me?

2008-12-30T11:22:00.000-08:00

It's 3.23 am in the morning and I should be sleeping but I was doing some research on my future financial planning. To my surprise, everything i had calculated before the reserach was actually a far cry than what i had expected.I teared while I calculated all over again.

All along I had thought that the CPF contribution was 20% but now it had increased to 34.5%.Now i know why the sign of aging population could affect the younger generation so much and finally understand why singaporeans are complaining the high standard of living. But just had I thought that it will dashed my dream of getting a flat in 2 years time,I realised that the downpayment for a new flat is only 10% and not 20% anymore.At least,I could still save up to pay for it.

I was upsat because i'm only 20 and im still in the midst of studying but yet im surfing such sites to plan for my future.Why did my parents let me pay for their wrong doings?Why did all the blows come at one shot?Why did I have to bear with such responsibility at such a tender age?What did I do wrong to deserve all these?Why am i worrying when i should be enjoying?

All these questions kept me pondering for minutes. Even ee aunty asked me whether i want to get engaged next yr so that i can at least get a rented flat. But i was angry,why must i sacrifice my own happiness for the sake of what my parents had done.Why can't I plan my life the way i always wanted it to be?

I told kor kor and asked him why are we forced by situations,isnt it unfair? I thought kor kor would agreed and felt resentful but he didnt.He told me that we should take this positively and should not blame them for it.And from these,we could learn to be more independent.

Should i stop resenting and be the once happy go lucky me?

I think I should.

Good night.

Xmas spree

2008-12-12T07:24:00.000-08:00

TGIF!!!But tmr im gonna work.It's ok,for the sake of Hong Kong,i will work!!!School has started not long ago but im still in the holiday mood cos too many festives are approaching.hehe.Recently,i had been borrowing travel guides from the library as i wanna do more detailed reserach on HK before i really go cos i want our trip to the fruitful and worthwhile.Dear has not sat on a plane before so i hope his first trip with me would be memorable too.:D

Dear and i did christmas shopping today as we gotten our pay yesterday.Woo-hoo!!!Bought a lot of stuff which is over our budget cos we both are too soft-hearted.Take for example, our budget for each person was only 20 bucks but when it comes to both our dads,we started telling each other that they should deserve something better this year as we focused too much of our attention on the mums too that we actually neglected our fathers.Haha and there goes our 100bucks...(but it was well-spent):)

For christmas this year,dear and i would not be getting each other any expensive presents as we are saving up for our upcoming trip.However,dear and i had planned to do something special this year.I told him that we both are given $20 to buy for one another a very special gifts,not LV nor Tissot but something that comes from within the heart.That's what christmas is all about!Right? Im excited!

Next week is not gonna be holiday anymore,it's projects time!!!

Ok for now,photos are finally gonna be uploaded.Hehe but only for a few lah.Still very lazy.

My cute Qq..

Lousy Camera...

Taking while being locked outside

My lil timid a.k.s sissy Panda...

Our favourite fish bee hoon at Changi Village.Damn power!!!It's A Must Try!!!

My dear!

Greedy and getting fatter me!:(

2008-12-05T09:36:00.000-08:00

This is so true! I'm truly a pure Leo.haha.

Leo
July 23 - August 22
If birthday falls before Aug 1 read also Cancer -If after Aug 10 read also Virgo

How to influence her: She likes to be the center of attention, so give her lots of it. You can be the king as long as you let her be the queen. She likes her social popularity, so take her out amongst hers and your friends. She likes gifts and surprises that make her the center piece, be creative in this regard. She is a homebody at heart and will always have someone over, help her to plan those activities. She is open and not shy to any conversation, so engage her in the most intimate of topics. She wants to be friend and lover at the same time so learn when its best to be her friend or her lover. Be open, frank, and truthful with her, she doesn't like evasiveness.

A few don'ts: Don't criticize her friends, the way she dresses or anything that she may view as demeaning, don't bump her off the pedestal. Don't put down her family or her home, they are part of her queen dom. She has her own views so don't force yours upon her. Don't try to dominate her or her place at the center of attention.

She goes best with: Aries, Sagittarius, Leo, Aquarius

She clashes with: Gemini, Cancer, Pisces, Scorpio

Neutral: Taurus, Virgo, Libra, Capricorn

I'm kind of sad when it said Leo clashes with Cancer cos dear is a cancerian. But nonetheless i wont let such reading affect our relationship.hehe.

"You can be a king as long as you let her be a queen..." i like this particular sentence,very meaningful..haha.

Dear today brought me to eat sicssors curry rice at serangoon,very yummy! i know dear dotes on me a lot,whenever i wanna go where or crave for something,he would definately bring me there.Although he is really not creative or romantic,he is a devoted and faithful lover.I cant get the best of both world right? :D

Right now,im so obsessed with 2 drams,one is little nyonya and the other is miss no good. After watching little nyonya,i get to have a better understanding on my culture.Im crazy over the beaded shoes and food that i went back scouting for my mum's beaded shoes and recipe book.Mummy told dear that im gonna craze over the peranakan culture for this few months and im sure to bug her to cook some of the delicacy for me.Scold me mad or what but i already demanded mummy to sew one beaded shoes with mandarin ducks to prepare for my wedding day.hehe.I so miss chap chye and ayam buakelak!!!

One day i shall take a picture of all the shoes my mum sew. It's really very pretty!

Alright got to work tmr,yeah im working back for SE.oh,it's been so long,wonder if i still can rememeber the specs.

Till then,bye!

Happy girl!!!!

2008-12-01T00:22:00.000-08:00

Im a happy girl lately cos i received many unexpected gifts!!!

Baby gave me a surprise by buying me a Nokia E71!!!but the fickle-minded me is still contemplating wheather the white or black is nicer cos when baby bought white,i prefer the black now.OMG,why cant i just decide on one!But anyway,im so happy la!hehe cos it been so long since dear bought for me sth without letting me know.:D

And my dear colleagues from my internship bought me mrs fields cookies(my fav),crystals hairclips,cosmetic and etc.I love them so much!!!I really feel like a part of that co. already.My boss also increased my pay for the last month cos he is amazed by my performance.hehe.I also received a very good appraisal from him scoring 56 points!!!Last Sunday,i also went to help out for the last time at marina mandarin for the aesthetic talk.It was quite fun and i also receive my letter of appointment already,requesting me to come back after my graduation as a business development executive.Im still deciding but most probably i will be going back cos now is recession period,hard to get a job.Furthermore,spa and aesthetic are my cup of tea and i can even have 50% off for all treatments.Cool right?i want to do liposuction,suck all my fats out.HAHAHA.And most importantly,the pay is better than market price.

I guess i must have passion in this industry thus im able to perform well.I felt really lucky to be able to get into this company even though it is not like those big office where it has 20 over stories.I want to quickly earn as much money as i can so that i can buy a house for my mum and myself.:) i want to marry dear dear also and start a family.hehehe...

By the way,im using my new laptop now!!!Damn happy now that i got my own laptop.Thanks dear for chipping in too.Daddy paid half for it as well as my xmas present.

Time flies,Christmas is approaching soon.Dear and i are planning to go Hong Kong next year,hopefully our dream will come true.So this year all xmas presents will all be a budget one cos we must save money!!!

Recentlly mum and i have been in good terms cos probably we meet less often?No,i really mean it.Cos now mum and i only see each other on the weekends so as we get to meet less frequently,we tried to compromise each other so as to treasure every time that we have.I love my mum. Ee aunty is also like my second mum,she prepares breakfast for us,wake us up every morning and she is my great confidante. I can count on her for anything.Once again,im so grateful to the ee family.

Wanting,long ge and ah loy,im so sorry,i know u all are bugging me for the photos but i never go home so i cant upload.Soon soon k?Very sorry.

Shall end here.

confuse?

2008-11-22T08:09:00.000-08:00

Im back to where im supposinly belonged to but only for a night.Im starting to itch already but then again if it were to make my parents just smiled for a day,i think it's totally worth it.

Mummy & daddy, i really do miss you all...2 yrs,just 2 yrs...be patience..

Felt kinda weird too cos dear's not around and i'll be sleeping alone tonight.Im starting to miss him already but my strong character just wouldnt wants it to be revealed.

Work is so busy that i did not realised school is starting and i realised everyone is looking forward to it.Whereas it's the opposite for me,i felt more obliged to be working than to study.Im still pondering whether i should crave out my career from there.I seriously measured out all the possibilities and impossibilities that whether this industry could give me a bright future.I had also asked many for their opinions and most told me to go ahead with it.Sigh,as usual im still fickle-minded.

Talking about relationship,all i can say is that we have not reach the maturity stage yet.We still have some serious fights on and off but always managed to iron it out at the very last bit.I will not deny that he is always the one who saved this relationship from drowning because i know he always feel that one day we would pull off this stormy period and be a matured couple.

Dear, do you realised that i only say the 3 words when we were about to sleep?Frankly speaking, that's when im able to place aside my strong front or in other words express my genuine affection towards you.

I do hate myself most of the time for being an ambitious,egoistic,self-centred person.I really do hope i am a "xiao nu ren" but it always fail.I dont know why and how.Im such a failure in relationship...:`(

On the other hand,im pretty much happy of all the friends i have.Hanging out with them can remove all my worries instantly...Ee aunty as usual still very nice,she always cook "ai xin can" for me to bring to work.It envious all my colleagues man!And of course im so proud and appreciative of my future mother in law.She isnt just my bf's mum but she is also a close friend whom i can confides my problems to. Espeically, I like her 21st century mind most!Cos she's not like other mums whom think traditionally but instead encourage us not be so "lau gu ban".

Photos will be upload soon...hahaha..getting old and lazy..hee

Success?YES!

2008-10-29T02:54:00.000-07:00

It's been so long since i last updated my blog!How busy can i be huh?But i'm really am.Im going through my internship now and i treat it as though im permanantly working for them already. I seriously do a lot of stuffs and thank god is not some kind of rubbish work like how my other friends are complaining to me right now.I did a lot of marketing related stuff like designing vouchers which i just completed not long ago,overlooking events such as roadshows,sharing ideas on promotions and etc. It was damn tiring but i had learnt a lot.It was pressurising as well as everything has to be report to the boss itself and what he seeks from you is performance,whether your work is qualified enough.

Thus i worked extremely hard (totally different from the ways i treated my studies :p) and try to prove my competence to my boss. But I was too persistent and serious that i had fought with my friends over work whom i felt that they were not hardworking enough.As a perfectionist,i require everything to be done in the way i want it to be. Praises and rewards,im always generous to it but if you produce shitwork to me,i cant help but telling you off. Somehow i just dont feel that we share the same piriorities in life.I only see "success" in my dictionary now!I want to earn a lot and get back my life.I do not want to idle around and just wishes for money to drop down from the sky.

I stress myself a lot and i worry a lot.I always have negative thoughts in life.But Dear had encouraged me and i felt a lot better now.

And of course my efforts were paid off,i got very good compliments from my boss and ya a good opportunity has been offered to me so now its up to me to decide my own path after i had gratuated.

Time to knock off and im signing out now.

Till then,good bye!

PS.I miss all my friends!!!meet up soon!

sleepy me

2008-09-27T09:55:00.000-07:00

Hello! I realised my blog looks very boring now cos i've not been updating it and there's no pictures.Im so sleepy right now so i shall add some pics tomorrow instead. Dear is very busy with the F1 events right now and im not gonna disturb him.

I'm so tired recently because of SIP.Im helping my boss with lots of upcoming events.should i be happy or not?haha.Yesterday i went for consultation at my company newly opened aesthetic clinic.LOL.I wanted enquire about improving on my features.By the way aesthetic is totally different from plastic surgery because it is non-invasive and non-surgical.Its totally riskless!But then again it can only last to about a year only.Hmm,only tai-tais can afford to maintain.A lot of my collegues actutally did fillers and botox,no wonder so many above average looking girls working there.The doctor was really nice and he told me where can i improve but before that he said i already had quite nice features,just that i can do it to look more stunning.LOL.That's the best compliment i ever heard can!He even said im a good looking girl.Omg,i so bu yao lian.hahaha.Anyway,what he had recommended on me was..

1)Doing fillers above my eyelids to give a deep set of eyes like caucasians do.

2)Botox below my eyes as they are a lil compressed

3)A lil filler on the tip of my nose to make it look smaller.

not recommended was..

1)my thick lips cos it's lucsious enough!!!
so funny when i told him how i used to hate them but he told me many customers nowadays actutally requested for Angelina Jolie's lips!!!

Wah,imagine if i were to do all,omg i would definately love myself to death.

But!!!I'm not so vain until that extent unless i have plenty of cash to spare.I love the way i look now just that i hate my ah buey figure.Hai ya,why my hobby is eating???:(

Just now i watch the London weight management advertorial and i got so tempted.But mummy scold me siao!!!Old people dont like skinny girls,dont know why.haha

anyway,i got so many photos to upload tmr.

very angry with MIO!!!Screw it!!!

Im also very du lan when some people actually copy other's dressing sense.It is so intimidating that it gets so scary to stay close to that person.It's like even the way the hair is pinned,the person does the same.So frustrating lor!!!One or two you follow,it's ok but isnt it too coincidence if everything seems the same?If really dont know how to dress up,then look for magazines to get inspiration like what i always do.When i was young,there's this neighbour also always buy the same things as me and i get very angry and complain to my dad.My daddy always bullshit to me by saying i've good taste thats why people follow so i should feel happy instead.Daddy very gila lor.I hope one ah pek also follow him dress then cut bald!!!hahaha..opps sorry dad.keke joking.

Aiya dont wanna talk anymore.so feel like dozing off now.Im preparing to get bitten again!!:( Never mind 1 day only,for the sake of spending time with my parents,i must endure!!!

Good night!=D

Ps.dear work hard!!!I miss you...

Im back!

2008-09-12T21:49:00.000-07:00

Ee uncle sent me home and dear is at work now.And im finally free to update my blog. There are many things to say but i had short term memory so i shall just mention the recent ones.

I just started my attachment at one of a spa company.Inititally i was worried because most of my classmates are posted to well-known co. whereas mine is just a 5 yrs old co.However,on just my very first day at work,my fear was all gone cos i had learnt so much within just 3 short days.My boss is damn nice,he said he would teach me the ropes and had given gave me 2 small projects to handle even though im just a green horn.I even went online to search for his name and unexpectedly he was an entrepreuer for year 2007!!!I guess i should count myself lucky cos some of my friends are doing nothing whereas i did a lot even though it was tiring and pressurising.

Thanks dear for sending me to work on my first day.Sometimes i just dont know why am i so upsat at certain things that you did.Seriously,i feel that you should be matured enough and not depend on your parents so much.Sigh,both of us are equally spendthrift,i really wonder how are we gonna settle down,have kids or even buy a house.='(

My biggest dream now is not owning a ferragamo heels or a chanel bag but a decent house.I really hate depending on people.But im still thankful that dear's parents welcomed me to co habit with them.However,i still miss home very much.Evey time my mum and i seperate home after a dinner elsewhere,i would cry while on my journey back.Even though mum and i always quarrel but i still love her very much.She always treats me like a princess and always try not let me face any hardship.

I just gotten my results and i have all Bs!!!Pretty happy with the results because my gpa improve and it's my first time that i didnt get any Cs or Ds.=)I really want to get a good job and start saving up to buy a house.

On thurdays,i went KBox with dear and his friends.Really enjoy spending time with them now cos i can see dear's happy face.Enjoyed my day!!!

For now,i just wish that dear and i could clear all dissatisfaction between each other.I had heard a lot of stories that couples broke up before they got marry because they co habit with each other.It's so true,staying with each other is not easy.

I love you very much dear.

Let's work hard for a better life!!!

Happy last min getaway!

2008-08-17T22:31:00.000-07:00

Last week was an unexpected yet magnificent week.I went to batam during the weekends with dear and his friends.It was a rash decision though.Initially,i was not keen to go cos it was very disorganised but i didn't expected it to be so much of fun.=D

We bought quite a lot of stuffs but was still not satisfied cos our money were limited.However,i did acrylic nails for the 1st time for only 35 bucks!!!I always wanted to try but Singapore cost about 100+.hehe.It's really pretty.I love them so much.haha.

Photos would be uploaded later.hehe cos im at his house.And we are at cold war with one another again.we seems to quarrel almost everyday.=( But Helen said it is very common.Oh well,it's kinda true.Soon,we might even reach a stage where we've got nothing else to quarrel so i should "cherish" this moment huh?hahaha.

Ee aunty had been helping me borrow Taiwan magazines from the library and I'm loving it so much.I don't usually read but i love looking at the fashion and sophisticated looking girls.I'm into more on a feminine and glamour vibe,blings blings and white stuff are all my love!i love Jill Stuart cosmetic too!!!!They are all so pretty.

Ok,i shall end here.Gonna meet mui mui to see a doc later.I'm not sick but i shall mention why i see a doctor in my next post.

Till then,take care!!=D

Im so proud of my uniquely roots!

2008-08-08T02:26:00.000-07:00

Wore it when my mum was out!such a pretty kebaya!=)

Came arcoss Felicia's Chin blog who is my local favourite actress and to my surprise,she's gonna film in a drama of the life of the peranakans.Which actually aroused my interest because i have never expect mediacorp to use the peranakan as a theme for their drama.Im really happy about it because it can explain my roots (which many people dont understand and unaware of)in a storyline with so many beautiful casts,especially Felicia chin!!!I really cant wait to watch it.=D

Although im not a pure bebe but im really proud of my heritage and would really love to know more about it if possible.From my paternal side,i knew that we have difference addresses to our elderly which i really had difficulty remembering and pronoucing it when i was young.

Whenever it was chinese new year,i would get really frantic and go round asking my parents:"daddy,pek pek's wife,i must call what ar?forget already.why so hard to remember?"haha,so funny.

Example:

Ee Cik = youngest aunty (mom side)

Tua Ee = oldest aunty (mom side)

Ji EE / Ee Neo / Ee etc = other aunty (mom side)

Engku = Uncle (mom side)

En Teo = aunty's husband (mom's brother in law)

Engkim = Uncle's wife (mom's sister in law)

Eng Cek = Uncle (father's side)

Mak Eemm = Uncle's wife (father's sister in law)

Ko ko = Aunty (father's side)

Ko Poh = Grandmother's sister

Ee Poh = Parent's aunty

Ma Ma = Grandmother

Ah Khong = Grandfather

Hia hia = Brother

Che che = Sister

Some sounds really funny but i guess other dialect such as cantonese sounds really funny too.now then i realise aunty in cantonese is "kar mo". hehe i wanted to laugh when dear calls his aunty that.=p

Peranakans speak in a very weird accent too,a bit malay abit hokkien.
And i remember i used to be so mad at my mum's sister for mocking at my heritage.Whenever i speak chinese,she would always went like :"eh jojo,hahaha,you know how to speak chinese meh?your father ba ba lang, you know meh?"Then she kept giggling all the way.I was so offended that i always went home to complain to my dad and he would get fuming mad too.After her incessant mocks,i was actually so determined to show her that i knew mandarin that i went round speaking in chinese to my relatives.LOL.

I am aware that it has a newly open peranakan mueseum and im so wanna visit it!hehe.

some knowledge (taken from the blog)Peranakan, Baba-Nyonya (峇峇娘惹; Hokkien: Bā-bā Niûⁿ-liá) and Straits Chinese (土生華人; named after the Straits Settlements) are terms used for the descendants of the very early Chinese immigrants to the Nusantara region, including both the British Straits Settlements of Malaya and the Dutch-controlled island of Java among other places, who have partially adopted Malay customs in an effort (chronological adaptation) to be assimilated into the local communities.

The word Peranakan is also used to describe Chinese Indonesians. In both Malay and Indonesian, 'Peranakan' means 'descendants'. Babas refer to the male descendants and the Nyonyas the female. The word nyonya (also commonly spelled nonya) may originate from the Portuguese word dona, which means 'lady'.

Most Peranakan are of Hoklo (Hokkien) ancestry, although a sizable number are of Teochew or Cantonese descent. Originally, the Peranakan were part Chinese, part Malay, and part descended from the (non-Malay) original inhabitants of Singapore Island.

Written records from the 19th and early 20th centuries show that Peranakan men usually took brides from within the local Peranakan community. Peranakan families also frequently imported brides from China and sent their daughters to China to find husbands. Analogous but smaller communities also exist in the region with different ethnic origins, such as the Indian Peranakans (known as the Chitty) and the Eurasian Peranakans (Kristang).

The language of the Peranakans, Baba Malay (Bahasa Melayu Baba) , is a dialect of the Malay language (Bahasa Melayu), which contains many Hokkien words. It is a dying language, and its contemporary use is mainly limited to members of the older generation; this is indicative also of the Peranakan culture at large. To reflect this unique language culture, this 'Nyonya' drama will hopefully feature the language in its originality.

Birthday Part 2

2008-08-06T21:25:00.000-07:00

Yesterday,it was just dear and i.I swear i had a splendid time and it was the most memorable birthday ever.Thanks a million,dear!=D

Dear was supposed to give me a surprise but i let the cat out of the bag because i knew dear too well.This was how i knew about it(even though bestie and mum profusely denied it)...

Me:Hor hor dear,i know le,you bringing me to sit cable car right?My mum told me de.hei hei.

Dear:Huh??what?She told you?Sigh.Surprise failed!

Me:TA DAH!!!I knew it!!!hehe you fell into my trap.=)

Dear:-.- (speechless)

Haha.Dear said i very cheeky,ownself ruined my surprise.LOL.Who ask you no creativity?=p

Yup,so on 6 Aug,we went ahead to the Jewel Box.Everything seems so exciting.Service was pretty good.I was told by ting beforehand to get ready a bottle of medicated oil and medicine cos i might get giddy.Sure enough,luckily i was well-prepared cos i got a little naesous but thankfully my "life savers" pull me through the whole journey.

Dear and i getting really excited!!!

Enjoying the sweet tomatoe soup.

The window.

The batik fan..very singapore..haha

use to fan when its stuffy

Enjoying the scenary

All smiles

no.72,our cabin number!

our main course

Apple crumble

My surprise flowers.I love it!

Making a wish

Blowing the candles

Cut the cake..=)

Thanks baby..

The scenary was breath-taking and i did not dare to look down.haha.The food was pretty alright.The climax was at the third round because i was welcomed by an unexpected surpise,a bouquet of roses and my favourite chessecake written:"Happy Birthday, Dear". It was always my dream of having oreo chessecake as my bday cake but most of my friends do not like it so i had to compromise.And Dear,i really underestimate you,you can do more than what i had expected.:)

Dear,i know i had been behaving like a mad woman recently.Screaming and shouting at you like nobody business.Am i having menopause?Omg,it cant be!Im extremely sorry!

In a few weeks time,it would be our 2nd year anniversary!I cant wait.hehe.

Dear,i love you...

Some annoying and childish act of dear.-.-

taking shots while im sleeping!!

I cnt stop laughing when i saw it.

I was so sleepy that i did not remove my make up.

im practising kung fu!

"heokkkkk!!!"

retreat a lil..

arghhh...bishhhh!!!!

BOMMM!!!!zZzZz.....

Haha so funny.i was actually adjusting the blanket..very cold.pardon for my fatty tummy.LOL

Forever in love...

Dear,do you remember wang lee hom"forever love".I remember 2 yrs back,you love to sing this to me.Now im gonna dedicate this song back to you...=)

愛你　

不是因為你的美而已我越來越愛你　
每個眼神觸動我的心
因為你讓我看見Forever　
才了解自己未來這些日子　
要好好珍惜愛我　
有些痛楚　
有些不公平如果真的愛我　
不是理所當然的決定
感到妳的呼吸在我耳邊　
像微風神奇溫柔的安撫　
我的不安定所以我~要　
每天研究你的笑容　
Ooh 多麼自然

Forever love Forever love　

我只想用我這一輩子去愛你從今以後　
你會是所有　
幸福的理由 ※
愛情是場最美最遠的旅行沿途雨季泥濘　
偶爾阻礙我們的前進感到妳的體溫在我懷裡　像陽光和煦巧妙的融化　我的不安定不可思議　
證明我愛你的理由　
Ooh 多麼自然
Repeat

妳感動的眼睛　
我沉默的聲音彷彿就是最好的證明
就讓我在說一次 I love you oh (直到永遠)
Repeat

Forever Love Forever Love Forever Love

Birthday Part 1=)

2008-08-05T21:43:00.000-07:00

Happy 20th birthday to myself!=)

Hmm..what should i start with?

Ok,on Monday after my first paper,Nad,ting,izy and i went to Mad Jack for dinner.We went to celebrate Izyan's belated birthday,as well as mine cos we are the Leo chics.LOL.I really enjoyed hanging out with them cos we can laugh like "Mad Jack".Hehe.The food was pretty good,especially the chesse fries.Yummy!!!But i was not photogenic on that day cos my eye had still not fully recovered.Nonetheless,i still enjoyed myself very much.Thanks gals!=D

Busy taking orders!

The yummy cheese fries

The crispy garlic bread!

Brownie!!!I

ting and i

izy and nad

leo chics!!hehe

izy looking at the "card" i did for her.We were all laughing at our old ugly pics..those were memories man...

Finally a pic of the 4 of us.=D

On Tuesday,before having dinner with my secondary school friends,dear and i had a big fight.I dont wish to talk about it as my whole evening was spoilt.But not to worry, we had made it up already.It's very common for couples to quarral so ya..=)

We had Hei Sushi for dinner..having fun with our don don don don...

We all order DONS!!!YUMM!

me with my beef don

Angel with her unagi don

crystal with her unagi don without onions!

Za with her teriyaki chicken don

The usual foursome!!hehe..must be wondering where are the rest?They were sitting behind us..haha..not enough space.=p

messing around my cam while im peeing..

came to join them!haha

ah tal and i.It's rare to see her,only on bday but glad she is doing fine.=)

my cute zaza..her poor sony phone so lao ya..opps..sony again!

my pretty mui mui..=)

My presents..small bag=money!!=DDD Big bag=gift from mui mui=)

ohh..whats that?

whaoo..a sleeping pyjamas.Mui knew i love pretty pyjamas.thanks!!=)

Anyway,of course my friends knew about it and tried all ways to make me happy.Thanks Angel,Syaza,Crystal,Liyana,Joseph,Qingyuan and Brandon for coming down.I appreciated it a lot.

Especially Angel,my dearest bestie,thanks for being my "organiser" every year and try raising "funds" for me.LOL.You'll always rank 1st in my heart!!!=)

Not forgetting EE Guo An,my dear.I know you had did a lot for me too and always wanted to give me the best.I can feel it but im just not a person that is able to express my gratitudes in words.All i could say is a BIG Thank you!I love you...and dear you also rank as the same position as my bestie,dont say i pian xin ok?LOL.

I must mentioned about Joseph too.He is really a good friend.He took half day leave just for me!im so touched.And he is always there to celebrate for us but as his friends,we are such a failure,we kept forgetting his.Im so sorry Joseph,i swear we are gonna throw a big party for u this year!!!haha.

There are more photos to be uploaded cos my bimbo camera failed at the time when im cutting the bday cake.Sigh,Sony sucks,pretty but lousy!!!

Presents time!!!

Well,this year i requested for cash instead of gifts because hmm..hur hur..(Dont wish to say =p)So my fund raised this year was $310(from friends),wait!!Still got more..Daddy's $108,mummy's $100,ee aunty's $100 and aunty esther's $48...Total:$666 IM RICH!!!LOL!

Also,i received an Agnes B cosmectic bag from the 3 babes plus a body shop make up brush.OMG,i love it so much.Thank you!!!Ting,you know me best.hahaha.

Lastly,cash vouchers from Guo dong and Bee hong..thanks!!hehe..i called them my future in laws.=p

Hmm..and for me,i got myself 2 lovely presents!!!My long wished Dior lip palette and Ralph lauren shirt.

My disgusting model..lol!!!

I noe,very ugly without make up but this is the real me!!haha

I finally got for dear his belated present too.A yellow burberry polo tee.Very nice!!!

All thanks to mui mui and Sijie..

So this is how i show my appreciation...

I went to mui's house when she's not in and left her a sweet lil note with our fav Bengawan solo kueh kueh.We love calling them "kueh kueh",so cute!!!I seriously missed my secondary school days..=) And of course she was so touched that she called and i presume she felt guilty cos she told me to forgo the 30bucks.LOL,RIGHT Phua ah mui???haha.

On the way to mui's house

A note for her..hehe

Alright ,tonight would be just dear and i..he's bringing me to....hur hur(don't wish to say too=p)..

So stay tune for more updates!!!

Thanks everyone once again!!!Opps,including the people who msged and called me early in the morning,Desiree(you so cute la!Call to tell me that u will save up for my present.haha,no need la!!),baybay(miss ya,long time no see),Gabriel(whom never fail to wish me every year=)),korkor and etc..I seriously feel like a Star today.hehe.=)

With love,

Josephine

Some bonus pictures...

The reason why he is call"sunny boy"..always tanning..-.-

"Arghh..dun rape me pls pls!!!"

"Hmm..today weather is good..i love the sun!"

"ehh..dont leave me out,play with me.im not tanning cos im too black=`( "

so exciting..

2008-08-03T21:38:00.000-07:00

BO0..hOo..Im so excited cos this whole week is gonna be my birthday celebration,excluding the stupid tests that always falls on my birthday week:( haha.

Monday-with tingting,nad and izy!!

Tuesday-with sec sch friends!!

Wednesday-with my dearest dear only..love love=)

Thurdays-with my own family

Friday-tests..=`( (BEST PRESENT,like as if!)

I had received a few 'gifts' already,mostly are ang baos and the amount is really generous.OMG,my dream to that bag is nearing...=)

I had also bought myself 2 bday presents and dear's belated bday present.Shall post it after my damn test..hehe

Gonna run,my book is still waiting for me to absorb them!

Lastly,happy advance birthday to myself!=D

I dont want to be blind!!!

2008-08-01T01:32:00.000-07:00

My eye had worsen...so pain..so scary

Omg.Today,in the morning something bad happened.I woke up at 7.30,headed to the bathroom to wash my face.After washing,my whole vision blacked out.I nearly thought i was blind (because of my swollen eye).At that very moment,many things ran through my head.I kept thinking what if i were really blind?My dear had to take care of a blind girl for all his life?Or my whole life is ruined?I cant see all my families and friends.

I kept shouting "daddy,daddy,daddy!!!"Luckily he came to my rescue and he almost called the ambulance.Thanks God,5 minutes later,my vision returned and i was relieved.Dad immediately sent me to the doctor again because he suspected that the medicine prescribed yesterday might be too strong for me.But instead,the doctor said that i was too tired and my whole body just shut down.

In my whole life,this was my second time fainting and coincidentally,my dad was there for me again.I love when daddy took care of me when im ill cos i feel like a little girl again.=)Thanks daddy!By the way,fainting doesnt feels good at all.I would never want this to happen again..Im gonna take care of my health now.Eat healthy,sleep early!!!

I want to watch movie tonight but i do not know whether i should go anot...I really wish that my eye could recover quickly.Next week is my birthday celebration.I want to look pretty!!!I look so freaking ugly now..=(

I want back my pretty face...

Ah mui and i during the IT fair.
A very nice collegue
Ai ren and i pole dancing..haha.Ai ren is so hot can when she wore that sexy lingerie..omg!!even im drooling..haha
I love her and she loves me..=D
Playing with my camera..=)

Ps.ai ren,im so touched that im one one of your TOP Fav friend.hehe i got read your blog hor..=) You are one of my fav friend too!!!

Bless to the unfortunate ones,f*ck to the irresponsible ones

2008-07-30T22:58:00.000-07:00

Photos after our presentation!
From left:Tatiana,Tiffiany,Dallas,Nadia,me and Si Xiu.

Im finally done with my CDS.All thanks to ee aunty whom stayed at wee hours for the past few nights just to help me complete all my sketches.And not to forget pp too for helping a little.hehe.This is what we call the "family team spirit".LOL.Stupid dear,he was supposed to draw instead of ee aunty but he passed all to her.hehe but nonetheless im still grateful because all the drawings are so nice.I will take pics of it and post it here soon.AND!!!Whoever wanna choose their CDS,never choose any from the design school unless you are very talented.I totally regretted it now!

Dear showed me a just deceased girl's blog and i linked it to her best friend(http://caiweii.blogspot.com/).After reading them,i actually cried because it felt so close to my heart.She has a best friend while i have one too but unfortunately her's had gone forever.Im really so gonna treasure everyone of my friends now but before that,you must know who is your true friend.How to find out?Time will tell and action speaks louder than words.

Hmm.. and there's this paragraph which i felt that all guys should read it,especially the very egoistic ones.It definately could wake their senses up.

"To all the drivers out there, please drive carefully.. please don't speed. On the road, if you wanna compete with other cars, please think twice. Don't start speeding and racing just because you wanna show the competitors how fast your car is. Life is really precious yet fragile. You're not cat. You don't have 9 lifes. Once gone, it's gone forever. That's it.(Funny but true)

Please take care of your passenger's safety too. You're responsible for their lives.. I used to want my boyfriend to speed on the road, to compete with others who seems to wanna race or show off. I thought it was fun and thrilling. But my boyfriend was a responsible guy. He don't do. Just once or twice. I always complained why didn't he speed when his with me but he speed when his alone or with friends. Now I know, he was ensuring my safety.. I was so foolish then..(So sweet,how i wish my bf would think this way but his pride always ruined it.)

Now things happened, It taught us a lesson. It ain't fun and it's dangerous. Risking your life for nothing. Yes you speed and you won other cars, you're faster than them. So what? What did you gained in the end of the day? Glory? What glory? Fame? What fame? (YES!SO WHAT???!!!)

If anything happens to you, who is going to answer to all the people who loves and care about you?Guys, please think twice.. Speeding Kills. It really kills.. it killed my very best friend.. my one and only bestest friend.. best sister.. "

My left eye is swollen now and i cant go school today.I seriously look like an alien now.Sigh,all thanks to my poor hygience.End sem is next week and im so scared.

My poor swollen lids.=`(

Anyway that's all,i need to rest my eye now.=(

A lot of wants!

2008-07-27T23:01:00.000-07:00

It's finally the end of July,which also meant that August is approaching!August is significant to me and only my families and friends knows why.hahaha.I cant believe the clock ticks away so quickly.=)

Today was sales presentation and guess what?We were complimentated as the best group in sales management module!Gosh,I really love my project group!Hehe.Tomorrow is our last presentation while Friday is the last report up for submission,followed by next week which is end sem tests and after that would be HOLIDAY!hehe.Although there is attachment,we still have 1 month of vacation.So happy!=D

I guess i would not be going to Thailand this year already cos everyone's time clashes.Orhh,so sad but we might be going Batam for a weekend getaway instead. Hmm..hopefully.I seriously need a break!

I realised i need to get a lot of stuff or rather i want.haha.I want a sophisticated bag for attachment and a lot of nice clothes and make-ups too!!!Recently i have been into this "diana big pony mesh" dress but i could not find them in Singapore.It looks sporty yet sweet.I like.

I also love Dior now which is my mum's all time favourite.She used to tell me how much she loves CD and she always spent on CD bags during her young days.Now i know why mummy loves them so much cos i find them so classy,so feminine.But of course i do not have the ability to own them now.But then again,im sure i will be able to own one in a few years time!haha.

And i have an urge in changing phone again.haha.E71 is so damn chio!I like executive and chic looking phones now.Orhh..but i cant change already!!!=( Anyway im just tempted and i wont waste my money anyhow again la.
I think i should go rest now.Had not been getting enough of sleep for few nights.And im gonna complete 3 sketches by today!

Some luxury which i like:

Such a simple but pretty bracelet.

I kind of like this bag because of its shape and colour but it cost about 2k man!Another tote bag which i like.Simplicity is always nice.And the small pouch serves as a bonus.

That's all,good night!=D

Say it again...

2008-07-22T10:39:00.000-07:00

Today would be a very lengthy post without pictures so be mindful.It had past midnight and im finally done with my brand management project and i felt so relieved knowing that it's gonna be hand in tomorrow morning. 2 more reports left but my CDS is driving me nuts.I still had 4 unfinished assignment which i really do not feel like doing it.I kept whinning until my dear actually offered to draw some for me.Im so happy!=)I dont expect much,i just hope to get it all done.

I could not believe i had did my projects today from morning till 9pm at night.I felt so accomplished because Nad and I had came up with a very creative and well-done IMC plan for our project.I think we both definately deserve a pat on our shoulders for abling to brainstorm it in just a short period of 2 hours.=) Frankly speaking,im really enjoying the company of my group members though we all have different backgrounds.They are really understanding, encouraging,generous with praises and most importantly,humble.

Everyone of us wants to work together again for the next semester and im very elated to hear that.Though they can be very understanding,i felt bad cos im the only one without a laptop which really hinder my efficiency in work.I felt so disorganised and handicapped during group meetings.Dad knew about it and had agreed to buy me a laptop but i dont want him to spend so much so i think im gonna pay a portion by myself.Im a big girl now and i should not depend on my parents too much.But dear was really kind,he told me that he would tried to chip in to lighten my burden as well.hehe,my dear is a gurdian angel.=)

Mentioning about my gurdian angel,he picked me up from school knowing that i was really tired after the long hours.In fact besides today,he is always giving me a lift no matter how long the journey takes and how tired he is.Yesterday,even though it was past midnight 2 am, he still sent me home.While on the ride back,i kept snezzing because it was extremely cold and he actually halted and removed his jacket just to put it on for me.I was so touched that i immediately hugged him.=) This is what we called "action speaks louder than words."

Yesterday we also had a really chessy conversation.It started out when i randomly picked up his new phone to play and realised his wallpaper is me.The moment i saw it,i cant help but smile.Then i went to lie besides dear(he was resting on his bed then) and asked dear in my sweetest and most mellow voice(trying to act like a submissive gf):"dear...hee..why you put my picture ar?"

Then dear act blur and tough with his most husky voice(trying hard to be a "MAN"):"What?cos inside no picture what so i randomly put yours lor. "

I replied cheekily:"aiya dear,dont pretend la...you love me right thats why put my photo..hehe dear...right?

dear;"siao,who loves you?Dont disturb me la,irritating leh."

Me:"errrhhh dear...you love me right?Say leh..say leh..say leh.."->times 3

dear act "MAN" again but actually weak(LOL):"ya la ya la,love you la..."
(Only after asking umpteen times)

Hehehe...and it went on until we both doze off..

I swear it was the sweetest conversation ever,at least to me.haha

Well well,though sometimes he can be quite annoying with all his childish behaviours,he still makes up my NO.1 bf.=)

Say it again.....

The thing about love
Is i never saw it coming
It kinda crept up and took me by surprise
And now there’s a voice inside my heart that’s got me wondering
Is this true, i want to hear it one more time

Move in a little closer
Take it to a whisper
Just a little louder

Say it again for me
Cuz i love the way it feels when you are telling me that i’m
The only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It’s like the whole world stops to listen
When you tell me you’re in love
Say it again

Thing about you is you know just how to get me
You talk about us like there’s no end in sight
The thing about me is that i really want to let you
Open that door and walk into my life

Move in a little closer
Take it to a whisper
Just a little louder

Say it again for me
Cuz i love the way it feels when you are telling me that i’m
The only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It’s like the whole world stops to listen
When you tell me you’re in love

And it feels like it’s the first time
That anybody's ever brought the sun without the rain
And never in my whole life
Have I heard words as beautiful as when you say my name

Say it again for me
Cuz i love the way it feels when you are telling me that i’m
The only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It’s like the whole world stops to listen
When you tell me you’re in love

Say it again,say it again,say it again
Say it again,say it again,say it again
Say it again,say it again,say it again

When you tell me you’re in love…
Say it again

Shopping with my dear Desiree

2008-07-18T02:48:00.000-07:00

Some narcasisst photos of me..hehe..love them all!Taken by my 5mp camara!

Oh mentioning about camera, im sorry my friends whom had been bugging me with photos,im really busy with projects.i will send them soon...

Everyday is almost like project meeting and im pretty worn out.Yesterday my dearest ai ren called me out and of course im willing to dig out some time just to accompany her for shopping.We went Vivo and she bought 2 pretty tops from F21 and River island.By right im supposed not to buy anything but by left i bought something!!!OMG!It's crazy,my $ is like getting lesser and lesser now.=( ok,CONTROL is the word!But i thank God i did not fall into the temptation in buying the Agnes b bag from Japan.Anyway, Meifeng is really nice to share "lobangs" with me.LOL.

Ai ren fav's pineapple rice

That's my sexy ai ren!

omg,my fav tom yum..

Me!!!

This is damn power,the prawn inside is so crunchy.

Oh ya,i bought a pretty and sexy set of lingerie from Tangs.It's so pretty that i really need to buy it.Hehe pretty important if you have a bf,opps!haha.I really love ai ren company.She's like mui mui,always see my positive side and never my negative side.Whenever my esteem get lows,they would go like "don't crazy,you are always pretty.."=)

Dear and i recently had been really cute.haha cos we can like get mad at each another and after a few moment,we would be lovey dovey.hehe.Dear bought me magnum and kinder bueno to satisfy my craving and im so happy after eating them.I love dear...=)He's always there for me..

Mum cooked my fav szechuan soup and im enjoying it now..

till then..byebye..

By the way,10 promises to my dog is damn touching...I really hope i can own a Golden retriever,it's my fav dog...but im contented with panda and qq la..haha

More birthdays!

2008-07-14T02:34:00.000-07:00

There are so many friends whom bday falls on july and soon it would be mine.=D

Last Friday,we helped juan and Geraldine to celebrate their birthday.To be precise,it was a belated one and we kinda felt bad about it but im glad they like our presents.=)

The lovely bday gals!

Ate at one of the cafe in Arab street.pretty nice

taken with the bday gals

mui too..

some candid shots of them.=)

group pics...

i miss my za za!!!=)she's so pretty...

Then on Sat,met nad,izy and jlai at town to buy for ting's present.I misses them so much can,we were talking endlessly.I beginning to love Nad a lot.haha.We always stick together in school now and most importantly we both love eating.hehe.As usual,Izyan and i still got lots to talk about.Izy,we will always be there for you...you are still my leo chic.hehe.I seriously miss my year 1 friends...

Ok so after buying the present,we went to ting's house.Happy bday ah ting!hehe..Yes not forgetting her,i love her as much too!hehe.She's so pretty on that day!=)Saw so many of her friends,her "ren yuan" really damn good.haha.She's so busy until she got no time to entertain us but we understand la so we actually entertained ourseleves by cam-whoring.haha.But my stupid "vibrator" cam was a little faulty.Sigh.But i had a great time with them.=)

Us with Ting=)

My lovely friends..

Long ge was really kind to help wt entertain jlai..haha...cos we were busy snapping and chit-chatting..

We took ting's shades and fan to create this supermodel effect.LOL

Jlai the paparazzi helping me to take shots of ting..haha

jlai hid the present because we lied to her that we got no time to buy.haha she was dissapointed at first but then...

she cant help showing off her teeths..lol

Hope you love it Ting...I would get the same one as u soon then we both can carry it out together soon!hehehe...

Then on Sunday,inititally I thought of heading home to do my projects but in the end i went out with dear's family even though dear's not around cos he's working.=( But i really enjoy going out with them.I helped peng and meifeng to choose phones cos they wanted to buy and with my great pursuasion,they bought Sony Ericsson phones.hahaha.Im such a good promoter huh?

Then after,guo dong treated us to ding tai fung cos he had just gotten his first pay.haha dear missed out...but dear dont be sad, im there to replace you.LOL.The food is not that nice,their standard seems to drop.

After our late lunch,we headed to Ikea as ee aunty was looking for a sofa but in the end we found nothing nice but ate at the cafe there instead.Hehe.Eat again.hehe..Really fun going out with dear's family cos everyone was on high spirit that day but of course it would be better if dear was around.

But something happened while on my journey home,i puked cos i had motion sickness again.sigh.Mei feng was really sweet to help me.thanks=) Kinda happy that she came into the ee family too..hopefully one day we can change our surname to ee soon..hahaha..Omg,what the hell am i thinking huh?hehe.By the way,mei feng and i thought of revamping the ee brother's room by painting it red.hmm..hehe..

Alright i need to rest already...my head starts spinning again..sigh..what's wrong with my fucking head..=(

Dear,i miss u..hehe..thanks for rushing to my house to pass me my medicine yesterday.Felt really touch seriously.Im really lucky to have u and your family...

happy birthday baby!

2008-07-10T19:42:00.000-07:00

PS.this post is suppose to be post last week but i was so busy...and i was sick again...=`(

So many things happened recently and i got so much to say. I was really busy last week cos of dear's birthday. And yesterday i did not attend school because i had "tension headache" for 3 consecutive days.It got so bad that i cant concentrate in whatever i do.Doctor said im too stress out and i had irregular sleep thus he prescribed me medicine to relax and sleep.But not to worry,today im in the pink of health again!hehe.=)After blogging, i need to go to school to do my projects and after that meet the girls for another bday celebration.Pretty excited!

Ok i shall rewind to last thursday. Thursday, i met mui and joseph to buy dear's present.I choosed for him an Armani exchange belt!hehe.I know he loves it very much now.=)Then i invited them to my house to have dinner because mum misses mui mui.And of course they enjoyed my mum's cooking.Joseph was so surprised to see how my mum and i communicate and he said "you and your mother really super a like" LOL. cos we both were arguing over something and as usual we both talked like as if we want to fight.

The next day which was friday,mui accompanied me to Ikea to see what i can do for dear but unfortunately there was nothing i could do.haha so we ended up eating a lot there.After that, we went to buy the cake and meet friends and dear at E hub to celebrate. Coincidentally,we saw peng peng passing by and asked her if she would like to join us.Hehe and she must had seen mui mui's bimbotic side.haha but that's what i love about mui mui,dumb but funny.opps,sorry ah phua!lol.

mui's fav sofa

cam-whores!!!haha

healthy salmon,i like!

omg,meatballs!!!

nice chicken wings

mui is all smiles

Enjoying the food.

angel,crystal and joseph.

opening his gift..hehe

so excited!

dear and i=)

we had bbq chicken which is suppose to be famous but i doubt so..

cake cutting session!

me with the ee sibilings.1 thing they both are definately alike,NOISY!!!!LOL.

us all,the staffs were really nice!

thanks guys for celebrating for my dear dear..

the pretty ladies.

like this pic..haha

look at mui and my reaction..its the same!!haha

dear=)

peng and an!

joseph and an

babes and geek..hahaha.

babes again...

group pic!

Then on Saturday, it was another celebration at dear's house where all his friends gathered.Pretty fun and happy to see so many ex punggolites there.Since sec 1 till now,it's like growing up with them.And they are really nice to give dear a lot of money which he can eventually save up for my bday.hahaha.no la just joking.And another group bought him a wallet which unfortunately spoilt my plan of getting him a Gucci wallet so not my fault hor?Maybe god is helping me to save my money, oh God,thanks so much!HAHAHA.No la dear, i will buy for you a real nice present soon ok?hehe.=D

everyone busy with cooking..2 mums helping out!

yum yum..

panda very busy and kpo,always disturbing the aunties cooking..

the crowd came in.

all enjoying the air con in dear's room.

another group of friends whom bought for dear wallet..

Eugene and dear..one of dear's gd friend too.

steven and dear

ben n dear

junfei and dear

me and dear

dear and panda

ee aunty and dear

mei feng and i..we come fr 2 diff worlds.she is submissive while im domineering.she is thirfty while im spendthrift.haha.my pri sch fren and my dear's bf 's gf.how small e world can be?

dear's bday cake

13 of us went to watch hancock.hehe

Then on Sunday,brought ee uncle out to eat because we owe him a father's day present.I know he loves dumpling so i brought him to imperial palace.Actually im really a nice "daughter in law",i seems to love dear's family more than my own.Sigh.I miss mummy and daddy too but they spoilt everything.I hate them but yet i love them.

While on Wednesday which is dear's actual bday,we went to Waraku to eat!omg.We love it so much!hehe.Dear happy birthday to you,so sorry there is no surprise for you this year because you screwed mine last year which im still angry over it.But i forgived you so just look forward to next year alright?hahaha.Actually there was no surpise because i really ran out of ideas and im lazy to think of any.Lao fu lao qi already,no need so much gimmicks huh.hehe.Dear,i really love you a lot...You are the best bf in the world!

On monday,i chatted with Long ge(wanting's bf) on msn and there was this particular conversation which i cant help but laugh.I forgot to print screen but i told ting about it and she laughed too.Long ge was telling me how horrible wanting and i was.I kept "niam" to dear how long ge is so romantic while ting always tell szeloong how good guo an is.OMG.so funny.hahaha.We are so not contetnted about our bfs.But szeloong really very romantic lor,im looking forward to ting's blog about her bday....

ps.dear,pull up your socks man!haha.

i seems so happy today.i dont know why.ok got to go..bye!

i will always love u dear...

Boring!!!

2008-07-02T00:35:00.000-07:00

07　原來你就在我身邊
作曲：蕭閎仁
填詞：蕭閎仁．林尚德
編曲：Terence Teo
監製：陳建寧

歌詞

在太陽下我們等了好久的車
讓時間拉長了影子
也許我們一直是很好的朋友
你也是這樣想嗎

常常不知所措的想　好想跟你好好說話
我們的世界可能有時差
真的感受你對我好　而我也都知道
很想大聲的說我很想念

你　原來在我身邊
我　卻一直沒發現想　
在一起的畫面　瞬間勝過永遠
我　會陪在你身邊
夢　會實現在這個季節
我看著你看著　原來你在我身邊

在太陽下我們等了好久的車 Hey
讓時間拉長了影子
也許我們一直是很好的朋友 Yeah
你也是這樣想嗎

你在我身邊　在我身邊

I love this song!!!Makes me think of dear.Omfg!Im so bored now..waiting for dear at his house...Supposed to go school do projects but cancelled..Dear,faster come home!!!!

Fruitful weekend!

2008-06-30T01:34:00.000-07:00

It's back to Monday again and im as tired as usual.Did my IJ last minute again and really regretted it cos i think i could write better.=( Oh what's done been done!Anyway,kinda happy today cos i got A for sales management.=)hmm..it's been how long since i smell of an 'A' huh???But i gonna work hard for the rest in order to maintain this 'A'!!!

I did not worked last week but spent quality time with dear.On friday,i went to root for him while he played basketball,then after we went to changi village to eat desert.Supposingly we wanted to have Popype at Terminal 3 but they changed their mind and went to East coast for Mac instead.OMG,im like always going to Mac for the last resort and i seriously dont like it.I shall refrain from Mac now!!!Fattening plus boring!

New terminal 3!

having fun over the weighting machine..
On Saturday,dear and i went to Jack's place for dinner.Remember i wrote the complaint letter?They replied and compensate me with vouchers.WOO!Dear had his all time fav mixed grill while i had chicken and steak.Ang Mo kio's branch is still the best and dear totally agreed with me!=) After dinner,we went to the flea market to look for Jerry.Kinda interesting and probably by the time when my closet cant be closed,i would tried selling my clothes for $2 too!hehe.Dont underestimate the $2,you would be surprised that you can make profits out of it!

Had a drink before my meal!hehe

My dear is forever bombared with phone calls..businessman ma..bo bian!

hmm..finally he can enjoy his "candlelight" dinner with me.hee

And me enjoying mine too..

In between these wonderful days,dear and i had bad bickers yet again which we really screamed at each other but nowadays we always make up by ended up laughing.I dont know why too.But i had read somewhere that quarraling once in a blue moon is not a bad thing as it beats those whom always keep to themselves.Quarrel could actually allows both party to know about their faults and thus improve on it.But of course if you quarrel like almost everyday than it's a damn big problem.haha.By the way,mommy always named us cat and dog cos we can really be like them when we fight.lol.And i told dear i would be the dog since he always claimed that my mouth is bigger than his.:p

Tonight im going "overseas" again.hahaha cos dear wanna take me to eat the famous Ramily burger.Omg,how can i ever fit into the bridesmaid dress when im eating at this rate??hee..but i seriously love eating.hmm..

Well..i need to get ample rest if not im gonna be like a zombie tonight!Hee..i kinda miss the gila mui mui now...gonna meet her tmr?=D

To end this post,i shall present Panda,the SUNNY BOY!!!(Unfortunately he is still asleep)

ps.i had add more photos to the previous post already.=)

eventful week!

2008-06-23T22:35:00.000-07:00

Hello!I must be insane to blog now cos i should be sleeping and replenishing my lost hours of sleep but once i turn on my computer,i would be glued to it.LOL. I had been really enjoying myself for these term break though i was busy with work.In fact work was fun itself and i will explain why later.Hehe.Now i shall share some photos i took,there are actually more but my cameras are at dear's house now.Will post it some other times

Ok,i had supper with few of the 1B03 people. Sean came to pick us up and we wasted lots of time deciding what to eat and in the end,we had MAC!What the?Anyway,really nice catching up with them.Ting was supposed to go but she was sick again.I wonder why she's always sick??

Not forgetting my dear,he was super duppee sweet.He did something risky for me which was scary but thrilling.Im not gonna say but thanks dear.hehe.I really love it when im period-less cos that's the time when im perfectly normal.My PMS can really kills anyone!Dear is always so nice,just one request and he immediatly fufilled it.I feel so blessed to have him around.

me: "Dear,i wanna cut hair can, must by today leh?"
him: "ok,no problem,i will bring you later ok?"

me: "dear,i feel like eating at this particular noodle at that particular place!"
him: "can,we shall have that for lunch so as long as you are happy."

me: "dear,i like that dress very much leh."
him: "buy la,i pay for you!"

=)All these request may seems simple but how many guys in this world will actually willingly do that for you,without a single word of complain?

Hehe,recently i had been going out a lot at late night and it's like my first time enjoying it very much.And surpisingly its with dear and his friends.I used to find them rowdy but now i realised it can be so fun hanging out with them.haha.

On saturday,we went to celebrate Eugene's birthday.First,we went quality hotel for taiwan porridge buffet.Quite cheap and nice!Then after we went to Henderson's wave.Very very romantic place for any couples there.And lastly,Seletar dam which i kinda find boring.LOL cos i dont have any fetish for cars or bikes.Dear was so happy when he tried out his friend's R1 bike.haha.I know he always wanted a sport bike but for the sake of me,he choosed a more comfortable bike.Felt a little bad but still happy of his choice.LOL.After we reached home,it was like 4am already.

Thought of not going out for the next few days but dear tempted me again.His friends asked if we want to join them to go JB for "lok lok"(roadside treats).Inititally,i was determined not to go but after hearing how good it was,i went!Haha.It was very fun,like going for a holiday like that.3 couples and 2 singles.LOL.hahaha.The "lok lok" at first did not seems appealing to me but after the first mouth,it was so yummy!Then after eating "lok lok",we went to eat "pi pa ya"(roasted duck.Yes,eat again,yesterday was pigging out day!hehehe.After the hearty meal,the guys went to wash their vehicles.hehe in fact i enjoyed it because the 3 gfs all sit in the car and dear did not ride his bike,he sat the car with me.Thanks to fu leong.haha.

waiting for fu leong to pick us up...

dear's bunch of buddies...

the widespread of "lok lok"!!!nice...

oh look at my handsome dear..hehe

Soon soon..they will find their partner..hehe

couple 1 Eugene and rechel

couple 2 jerry and helen

Couple 3 us!!

Us in JB 7eleven!=)so lovin baby..

"pi pa" ya!

I swear this picture does not do justice to it cos itis damn nice!And i realised i had bad photography skills.haha

Carwash and bikewash..super cheap!

Though i was really dead beat after the end of the day,i still enjoyed it very much and i look forward to more outing with dear and his friends.hehe.Dear's bday is approaching and im having headache of what to do for him.I realised im not as creative anymore.=( But anyway im very excited.haha as though is my bday huh?=D

Oh and not forgetting about working,i was so surprised to meet YAN SHAN!Inititally when i saw him,i was like "you look very familiar!: Then as we start recalling our school,he mentioned that he was from TP so i assumed i saw him in school before.Then as we started chatting,he tried to trick me by telling me that he was actually from PGSS but of course i didnt believe him.Then finally,when he said he was from SK primary,my eyes popped out and when i also said i was from there,he was surprised too.We couldnt recognise each other at all,its only when i said im that "fat josephine" then he remembered.LOL.Really thrilled to see him after a long 8 years.It must be fate.=) He looks so much better now even though his eyes are still very tiny.hehe.So nice making fun of him.haha.

And there are some other photos which i took with the staffs there.We were all in very good terms.Xiao zhu and jolin!hahaha.i so love working with them but i doubt im going back again cos there are too much politics there right now.

The reason we posed like that because he is tryin to imitate xiao zhu.lol.childish but so fun giving each other names!

ah tan,the strip flasher!lol

Yesterday went to look for dear after school.Had lunch with him and did some mini shopping at his school's small shopping area.hehe then went to his lab to accompany him awhile cos his stupid in charge saw me than i had no choice but to leave.But it was so happy seeing dear.hehe.

ate this while looking at dear.hehe

dear's table.not bad sia...

my little buys.hehe cheap cheap man.

engross in his projects.so hardworking meh??

cutie dear

Hiding cos afriad his teacher might see me.

ok lah,that's all need to sleep already,shall add on to the photos soon...night!=)

The days when we bumped into Izyan!Very happy to see her.

Im glad she knows we missed her..hehe and friends dont bear grudges..we still love u leo chic!=p

A photograph album where we decided to place our memories inside.=)

A few days back when we went to Giant and dear cant resist the temptation on buying the XO instant cup noodle..

updates!

2008-06-15T21:25:00.000-07:00

Been working for the it show for the past few days,really tired.People asked questions like there's no tomorrow but time passes very quickly.I just gotten my G900 for only $78!So damn happy cos i can get the lastest phone at such a cheap price.I love my new phone really much cos it has all the features i wanted and most importantly it's in red!It's worth waiting!=)
Very angry with a particular someone cos that someone can be so selfish when it comes to work.I finally saw that someone true colours.Feeling very hurt but i know everyone is not perfect.Maybe it's my retribution because i used to be very selfish in my studies.What goes around comes around?Anyway,i cant always be so naive to think that everything i want must be perfect,it only happens in fairytales.It's ok,forgive and forget ya?=)

I saw Belinda lee on saturday.Though she is not a very popular actress,i kinda like her.cos people had been telling me that i looked like her.hahaha.Initially when i saw her on tv,i dont think she is very pretty but when i saw her in real person,she's so pretty!Im not trying to praise myself huh,i plainly meant her,not me!haha.I told dear that she's the pretty version while im the ugly version.im not trying to eat humble pie but her figure is really good unlike me=( haha.Tempted to take a picture with her but i dont dare.=p Dear very bad,he said one thing i resemble her the most,the greedy face while eating(cos when we saw her,she was eating pasta mania).LOL!

Saw this video from yt's blog and i cried when i watched it.Instead of idling here and enjoying life,people at china are suffering.I felt so guilty,im gonna donate money after i take my pay next month.Chen jian,i hope you rest in peace...=`(

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FvvM9VQ-uOw

Recently,been addicted to leona lewis "better in time"..so meaningful and nice!

....Thought I couldn't live without you

It's gonna hurt when it heals too

It'll all get better in time

And even though I really love you

I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to

It'll all get better in time....

shall end here!!!

The important person in my life!

2008-06-13T01:23:00.000-07:00

When i run,you always know how to catch me.

When i hide,you always know where to find me.

When im feeling low, you always know how to brighten up my day...

You made me realised how important your presense is.

Thank you!

=)

i want to be alone for now...

2008-06-11T08:40:00.000-07:00

Suddenly im feeling so tired about life now.Why must we do things according to other's wishes?Why cant we just do the things we like?You all told me that we are not as what we were used to and im a "big" girl now so you all assumed i can adapt to everything quickly.Yes i may look like im a sensible,big girl now but do you know im still a little girl at heart.Whenever i talked about it,my eyes would be filled with tears without fail.I really understand and had move on but why you all must hurt me again.I know i cant get whatever i want like i used to so i worked hard for it but when i did,you crtisized.Why must i deprived myself in proverty?This is my life and im very happy the way i spent my money.Im angry because i felt maliged.Counting my expenses for this month,i realised majority is not spent on myself but people whom i want to make happy but no one seems to appreciate it.when i buy gifts for people,im not trying to impress but im just paying back twice they gave me.When people are nice to me,i treat them doubly nice but no one seems to know.Maybe i should just keep everything to myself next time...

People may suffered the same plight as me or even worst but they might have brothers or sisters to share their sufferings with.I dont have,im all alone.Sometimes,i really do feel lonely.I have brothers but they are all far away from me.I miss them,i really miss my once so happy family.kor kor,i really miss the days when you always try to wrestle with me,the times when you always hush me down if our house blacked out and lots of philosophy of life which you had taught me.

Thanks bestie for talking with me over the phone for 3 hours last night just to hear me out.I felt so much better after i had a big cry.But i guess i had hurt some people as well.Dear,let me be alone these few days alright?If you want to punish me,love me less,shout as many vugularities as you want,i really dont bother anymore.Im tired.

Went to bestie house today and we dolled up together.I miss doing so.She passed me my wallet which i love it so much.It's so cheap!Thanks si jie also for helping!After that,i went to accompany her to collect her ralph lauren bag.She's pampering herself now.rich woman.After that,ah cheong treated us to dinner,its like finally cos he had been so busy.We misses him so much cos he's our favourite teacher.Thanks ah cheong!

Pretty bag!

the inside

so happy it's make in italy instead of china.

cam whoring while waiting for cheongster.

exchange bag for a moment,i love her bag!

She's enjoying take my bag as her prop.

NAH!return back to you la...haha

showing off my wallet..

The food was BAGUS!!!i love everything especially the ginseng soup.

our cute cheongster!!!

zoom his face,thats what we love to do.

angel lame,asking cheong to take candid pic of us.

Very not photogenic today,i guess im not feeling upbeat as usual.But mui is always pretty!

Told mui to wear the same theme as me..black and white

.....

Sex and the city!

2008-06-05T23:50:00.000-07:00

Supposed to turn up for my project meeting but i forgo it cos i have not completed my part and besides that i dont have a laptop,it's like all of them has it except me.Ya im the poorest of all but i really do not mind not having one cos i have a desktop already and im contented.So i rather do at home and send it to them.Need to borrow some books for reference.Im still having ambiguity about my part.=(

Im so happy!Im gonna work with my favourite people next week,that's including my dear.haha.I told dear jokingly that if we work next week, he must change the way he addressed me,from "dear" to "josephine".haha cos it would be so weird if a couple work together.so excited la.can see mui mui chubby face again.hehe.

By the way,yesterday i went to look for mui mui for dinner.Asked joseph and qy along too.No matter how busy we are,we must always try to catch up with each other.That's whats friends all about ya.=)We ate at some weird resturant which the food was not up to my expectation.After dinner,i went to mega store to look for my colluges there.Haha misses them so much.I know they miss me too.LOL.We got so much to talk about.Its really enjoyable working with them although it can be quite pressurising at times.

During evening time,dear joined me for a movie,SEX AND THE CITY!Oh my god,it's the best movie ever.There are so much of glamour in this show.I totally hugs Sarah Jessica Parker,many said she looks old but i still love her.Her kiddish yet sexy voice,her elegence and also the way she carries herself.I want to be like her when i reach 40.This show is a must watch!Romance,friendship,career and sex.How can a successful relationship live without a good sex huh?haha.

I particulaly love the part where Carrie (SJP) got jilted during a wedding and her friends put aside all their works and families just to keep her company.I teared because it reminds me of my very 3 good friends.The day when my dad lefted my mum and i,3 of them came to my house to keep me accompany.Im a person whom valued friendship a lot.My friends mean a whole world to me.

Besides that,i go ga ga over every designer bags that they carried.I was consistenly pointing out to dear throughout the movie"dear,gucci, dear chanel, dear lv, dear chanel again!".Omg!How i wished i can own all of them.I must watch it again!Its so damn nice.hehe.

I love Kristen davis too,she's so pretty and cute!haha.

Gonna collect my burberry wallet and christian dior perfume next week!so excited!haha.Later gonna go Gucci to see cos they are having sales now!By the way,must be wondering why am i so rich to afford such things?Im not rich,i just love to spend on good stuffs.Besides,i do not steal,rob or demand my parents or bf to buy them for me,i use my own hard earn money to buy!That's the most satisfying part!But of course spending within my means.

Im gonna save portion of my pay for bangkok trip to buy lots of clothes cos i hardly buy clothes now,im actually quite stingy towards clothes.If a dress cost 50bucks,i would never buy it cos i feel that fashion is always changing,Im afraid i only wear once.hehe.Dear always whine that he dont have any branded stuff before so probably i get my pay next month,im gonna get one for him!hehehe.dear,dun get so excited ok?So now u can hint hint to me...=)

so long never cam whore...hehe..dear said i like "dawn wayang",face colour dun match my body.But i think i look fine cos its probably the flash too strong..haha

Qing yuan and joseph

mui mui=)

Sweet besties

joseph tom yum soup

Mui and my dory fish set meal

Tests over!!!

2008-06-04T22:40:00.000-07:00

Im finally done with all my tests.Damn happy!But not forgetting my projects and other IJs which have yet to complete.Being a student can be quite sucky at times.:( After my last paper yesterday,nad and i decided to scout for the foodcourt which she had been mentioning to me all these while.After lunch,i went to dear's house to wait for him and slept my whole afternoon there.Ee aunt is ill and i prayed she would get well soon.

After dinner,dear and i had a bicker again.I dont know is it because im fatigue that's why i picked a fight with him or am i really unhappy with him.I really dont know.I think i really have 2 faces sometimes and my mood is unpredictable.

Anyway,he was very nice when i was busy revising my tests.He even bought the oyster mee sua which i had been craving for.Thanks:) Having a bf is always an advantage but provided he is the right one.Cos if u have a jerk ass bf,then good luck to you.=) Ya,im lucky and fortunate but sometimes i just dont know how to appreciate it.But i guess in a relationship,there is always one whom will put in more effort than the other.However,for my case i feel that im always putting in effort in spicing up the relationship but for him,he is always trying to complete his duty as a bf and vice versa neglecting our respective "efforts". It's time we should do something about it.

Heavenly food!lol

By the way,holidays are here,i have to work,complete my school work and enjoy myself. I did my first french mani last week and i was delighted with it.=)The manicurist told me my nails are very weak and i had to apply strengthener everyday so ya im listening to her.I always wanted to try acrylic nails or gel extension but she told me not to cos it will weaken it further.So im gonna make my nails grow stronger, healthier and longer so i can do nail arts and not depending on artificial nails.

Gonna find mui for lunch later.she owe me a "ren qing".haha.ok ciaos for now.

2008-05-31T23:25:00.000-07:00

Mid sem test is starting tmr but im only on the second chapter.I really have no mood to study.Sigh.Anyway i shall resume my revision in half and hour time,let me do some updates to freed myself from the undying stress=(

I shall start from the oldest to the lastest event of my life happenings..

Gathering with these girls...Misses them pretty pretty much.Juan juan,nana and dine.

Ps.Sorry girls,haven send u all the pics,shall send u all soon k?haha

KTV after work with summer.So fun singing with her cos she can be so crazy like her sister.=)

Our collogues who treated us.So nice huh.haha

Cam whoring while waiting for dear downstairs,surpise surprise!=)

Mum's birthday!Dear's family bought a cake for mummy and mummy treated them.They are so sweet to us.PP even did a sweet lil card for my mum.Thanks so much e EE family!=)

Went to spore flyer as a school field trip as we are doing a project for them.Help them do still must pay for the ride.Tsk,so stingy.It was so boring can?Maybe we went in the day thats why dont have the "feeling".They have so much to improve also.

After spore flyer,went to meet mui,summer and yt to collect our pay.I realised we always meet on pay day.hahaha cos that's when we have money for shopping.We walked till our legs were numb man.We kept hanging around DFS cos we 4 were deciding what to get.After much consideration,im getting a wallet and a perfume.hehe.Will snap photos once i buy them.hehe.Come to think about it,it's so rare that the 4 of us were out together.2 pairs of best friends.hehe.ME and mui,summer and yt.We share so much in commons such as LOVING branded stuffs.LOL.The materialistic 4!

On friday, after school i went to nyp to look for dear for lunch.My dear so nice,skip his fyp just to join me for shopping,i still can even scold him "hum ji".Sorry haha.Thank you dear!hehe.I bought 2 dresses and a pair of shoes for dear and i.I love hanging out with dear.During the night,i accompanied him to Steven's bday party.Was at first hesistant to go cos im beat and im also shy.haha but i kept telling myself to be brave.Dear's friends are also my friends,i must learnt to be friends with them too so eventually i went in the end.Hehe.Im glad they were nice cos they tried not to left me out.=) From now on, i would try to socialise more with dear's friends.

Alright,i think i wasted too much of time.Sigh,thurdays please come quickly.=( i hate tests!!!!

Ps.im craving for oyster mee sua now..=(

That's when i love you

2008-05-31T08:10:00.000-07:00

This post if dedicated for my one and only boyfriend...

When you have to look away
When you dont have much to say
Thats when I love you
I love you, just that way
To hear you stumble when you speak
Or see you walk with two left feet
Thats when I love you
I love you, endlessly

And when your mad cuz you lost a game
Forget Im waiting in the rain
Baby i love you,I love you anyway

Heres my promise made tonight
You can count "on" me for life
Thats when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind

The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,WhenI love you no matter what

So when you turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie it made you cry
Thats when I love you
I love you a little more each time

And when you cant quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
Thats when I love you
I love you, more than youll know

And when you forget that we had a date
Or that look that you get when you show up late
Baby I love you, I love you anyway

Heres my promise made tonight
You can count "on" me for life
Thats when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind

The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
When I love you no matter what
Thats when I love you

When nothing baby
Nothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,When I love you no matter what
No matter what

That's when i love you.... even how smug u tried to be :)

Money makes my world goes round.

2008-05-21T18:26:00.000-07:00

my cousin's getting married and she wants me to be either her bridesmaid or jie mei!wah,im so excited!!!hahaha.Im excited cos i can be her co-ordinator,dress to the nines,meet many long time no see relatives and of course accompany her to walk down the aisle of the church.We both are catholics thus our dream is to marry in church.Im so glad that she's finally settling down and i just hope she has finalised her decision cos she can be very dramatic realistically(like running away while the vows are pronouced???CHOY!!!hope it doesnt happen,LOL.).

Met her on tuesday at indochine for dinner then to her house cos i wanna see her mother which is my aunt.I miss my aunt pretty much too.Although she can be really naggy at times,her straight forwardness draws me to her.She also gave me gifts from korea which i love it a lot.Thank you my dear cousin=) Others may despise you but definately not me.

Projects are really causing me to stress up cos there are so many researches to do.Sigh,i really hate the pressure.Now,i just cant wait for the holidays.=(

Recently,i had been comtemplating on how im gonna make use of my upcoming pay.i want to get a new phone but im hesitating whether should i get a SE model or samsung or nokia.Cos im working for SE thus having it would create convenience for me but the problem is i dont like any new model of it except for one,w910 and for the plan im signing up with is FREE which saves me a lot of money.But i like samsung i780 cos it has wifi,words &excel,live messenger,gps and stuffs like that and most importantly,the RED colour is damn appealing.Its like so "whao"!And i like n95 too cos i just like the big screen.Sigh,im so spoilt for choice.

I thought of getting a wallet and since ah mui's friend has discount,i dont mind getting 1 gucci wallet.Die,im so brand consious now.I really must change this luxuious mindset of mine!But the inferior complexity is killing me!=(

relaxing weekends!

2008-05-13T21:22:00.000-07:00

Yes!It's wednesday which meant that it's my OFF day again!Today im gonna do some research for my projects and complete all my tutorials,josephine is getting more diligent now.haha.

Last weekend was quite relaxing cos i didnt work.ya,im getting really lazy but also partly because i wanna focus more on my studies.=)On saturday,i accompanied dear dear to his friend's 21st birthday party.I dont feel shy being with them cos they are dear's poly friend unlike his sec sch friends,i felt a barrier there.Dear said it's because we all grew up from the same school and we dont talk a lot at all during that time thus when 5 years later,i became dear's gf,it gets so weird.haha.But im trying to get used to it and they are really nice to welcome me.

bday boy-johnson

Dear's bunch of close friends in school.

Johnson's friends

OMG,is that a "blowjob"?LOL

A BIG BIG condomn.hahaha.

On sunday, we decided to change the venue from waraku to jack's place cos ee aunty wanna try escargot.Early in the morning,ee uncle gave us a lift to punggol plaza to buy flowers and card for both mummies.Then in the late afternoon we met my mummy there but uopn reaching there,we were so dissapointed cos the service and quality of food totally sucks.

The bloody meat!

haha.mummy and i kept complaining,we both make a good team huh?dear said i look so fierce.haha.im dear's sassy gf.=p anyway yesterday i just wrote a complaint letter to the HQ.Actually im not angry anymore but i realised for my individual journal- service marketing, i need to write a professional complaint letter of any bad services i encountered.Then i was thinking why not just kill 2 birds with 1 stone since i never wrote before and it's graded.haha.

Later im gonna meet dear dear,i miss him so much:(

Qq has a "guai pi",she likes to sleep under beds,it doesnt looks like cos i turn on the flash.

SO cute la qq!

muacks i love u!hehe

I miss having long long hair...dear hair..please grow quickly.

long entry!

2008-05-09T06:19:00.000-07:00

Nothing exciting happened recently but i was ill last week.Had a high fever that felt so horrible.Dont know why when im sick,i just needed that extra 'love' from my parents.I would actually purposely make myself looked so weak just to get the attention from my parents.I guess the reason why i did that was because i didnt had their concern for a very long time.5 years ago,they were all busy fighting and peace was never existed at home but once im ill,they would all be worried and they would just put their hatred on one side just to make me well again.

Ee aunty homemade herbal tea and cuttlefish porridge for the sickly me.

So if friends like Angel who is always showering me with concern,i would be so grateful to them.=) i still remember there was once when i was sick and i didnt turn up for school,ah mui came all the way to my house to pass me my homework and washed all my unclear dishes in the basin.She also has a habit of asking me over and over again if im alright which sometimes i felt naggy though.hehe.

We always share the same telepathy!i really love my pretty best friend!:)

Anyway mentioning about her,the day before labour day,we went to collect our pay and went shopping after that.After which,we actually called mr wu out for a treat by him.hahaha.He brought us to Shangri la hotel-blue horizon lounge for a drink.It was located on the 23th floor and we had a full paranoma view of town.It was simply magnificent!It is always fun when ah mui is around!haha.I even saw Cheryl fox in the toiliet.

Bestie's new bag.so nice!

Mr wu's volvo!

The breath-taking view!

dont dare to on the flash,so pai seh la,like one gugu like that.

On labour day,dear brought me out to walk.Inititally i didnt felt like going cos the night before i was having a slight fever already but considering that it was our 20th month,i wanted to spent the day with him.So i endured and endured until mid afternoon,i couldnt take it anymore and dear had to send me home.I felt so bad cos i ruined the date but im glad he took really care of me after that.He kept sponging my head and joked with me so i wont feel bored.haha.

Oh yes,dear also gave me discount for my Ralph lauren bag.hehe.I really like the bag so much.Its like finally,the new season colour is nice.ah mui and ting are surely gonna say me.hehe but i swear this is gonna be the last bag i buy for this year.Next year then i consider LV or Gucci again.hahaha.

Ok,im really gonna save my money!Not because i really want to but because everyone's bday is coming.OMG!I HATE BDAYS!!!except mine la.haha.mother's day is approaching and we gonna have Waraku for it!!!YAY!!!I want to do a card for both mothers.

School is ok but nad and i realised something about our course people.They are all either f*ckin rich or english speaking people.We have like gays in our course also luh!We felt really small and very inferior.From head to toes,they are all branded.It's really hard to click with them.But no matter what i had nad and nad has me so i have nothing to fear.hehe.And i always tell myself be contented and my life would be better than them in the future.

Dear is really sweet.He finally brought me to Geylang for the famous beef kwey teow and than Iron man at cine.Despite him being tired from work,he is always there for his demanding and unreasonable gf.Dear,im sorry i take you as my punching bag when im angry.Thanks for being very patient with me.:)

dear's ah buey face.hahaha

advertise for them!haha

now is my ah buey face!haha

our helmets!!!hehehe so lovin yeah.

the widespread of food.yum yum!

lady driver's skill?

inconsiderate people!

Im so smitten with 超級星光大道 now.Today PP show me the "haven broadcast on cable episode" and i was so excited about it.Seeing every contestant progress week by week can be really touching cos you would be like so proud of their sudden achievement like 林宜融 and pei ci.so nice so NICE!hehe.

EE aunty so nice,she help me to stock up my make up remover and sanitary pad without wanting me to pay any of it.hehe she treats me like one of a family.im so touched la!haha.I always dream that if mummy strike lottery 1 million,i would want to request her buying a house beside dear's unit and than built one door in between our house so we can be like one happy family walking in and out of each other house.hahaha..i guess i think too much already la..=D

saw this picture while browsing thru my albums and i saw this!OMG!I look so ugly right?hahaha.it was like a vast contrasity between now and then.No wonder dear used to mock at me in the past.but now he gets his retribution in return.hahahaha.

so random.but this is how my wallet in it looks like.only the important people would be kept inside.Saw dear's handsome pic?ya handsome.but it was 3 years ago la.he 3 yrs ago handsome while i 3 yrs after pretty.hahahahaha..ok la that's for today.bye!=)

Happy minus sad=Dear's love

2008-04-28T08:42:00.000-07:00

Last night,i could no longer take it anymore and cried out to my dad "daddy,could you buy a new house for me?"In between the lines,my voice shaken and the tears instantly poured down from my eyes and for that moment i could felt the pain and regretfulness my dad had.

All he could do was to watch me rant and wipe my tears at the same time.I know he doesnt wants it to end this way but i just wanted him to know my misery.

He had committed a mistake but it was not him that had to bear with the consequences,it was us,his children.

Just one night and half of my back was filled with bite marks.I took few hours tossing and scratching my back before i managed to doze off.Is this what they call home?I doubt so....

I'm sorry that i always have to start or end my blog with at least some unhappiness engulfing it.Well,that's me,i'm always allowing the devil in me to take control.

Okay,today school was pretty alright.I had met my new classmates and had formed my new teammates.My new classmate which was my then ex schmate(in punggol sec) requested me joining his group.I was like so interested in joining them cos i heard that their projects were all As.Being a slacker for like 2 years,it was really a last chance for me to pull up my GPA.But after that rash decision,Nad was telling me that by joining them equally means that we have to bring up our standard and could no longer 'float' in the midst of nowhere.After hearing what she had said,i started to feel the pressure already.Oh man,Josephine has to pull up her socks already.But i must think positively cos in working life,your performance level is extremely crucial.

So after school,dear and i went to do some little shopping.Dear actually cancelled his gym session just to accompanied his teary,upsat gf.Im so touched.Thanks dear a million.=)We both bought for each other a pair of haviannas.I cant believed that it's my first pair while dear had 3 already.I love the pink one so much that i cant get it out of my mind.Sigh i always forced myself not to like pink cos it's like such a bimbotic colour but 'pink' always purposely make me choose her.hahaha.Dear finally found the brasil one cos most place had ran out of stocks.hehe.Dear also bought me a belt.So happy!

My bimbotic flip flops has a little crystal on it too,so cool huh?hahaha.

After that little shopping ard town,dear brought me to coffee club.He know the best medicine for me is FOOD,FOOD,FOOD!Yesh!I love to eat!hahaha.

mmm...

I love the ice blened minty lychee drink!!!

Dear's vanilla mocha!!

Smoked salmon pasta!Yum yum..=)

Too much calories intake for today,tmr i gonna skip lunch.hehe.ok good night!And dear,thanks for being there when i need you.You are the best bf on earth!!!!Muacks!

Themepark!

2008-04-27T08:28:00.000-07:00

On saturday,dear,i and along with my dearest friends,we visited the theme park.Thought of going to wild wild wet instead but my period came so we had to forgo that.=( Seriously themepark wasnt that fun due to lots of my fav games were closed but due to the fact that i had my friends company,i enjoyed it very much.haha.Im so happy to see Joseph and brandon cos it's been like so long that we had a gathering.=)Okay,pictures for now...

We met in the mac first.Zaza was so pretty on that day.She finally pad some powder on her face and remove her spectacles.hahaha.She's always my pretty zaza luh,just that she had been lazy for years.I think we look extremely radiant on that day,dun cha think so??hehe..They are my best best friends!!!

Not to forget,my ever so vain but pretty bestie,phua mui mui!!!haha.Some people said we look a like and we are actually delighted to hear that cos i think she's pretty and she thinks i am..muhaha..

The macho men...haha my dear dear was so cam shy on that day,dont know why.But he looked handsome on that day cos he styled his hair..haha.

After everyone had arrived,we went to played the first thrill ride.Mui and i totally freaked out,we were screaming our lungs out.I was so giddy that mui mui massaged my head while the ride was still on.So sweet right?hehe.My 2nd bf but in a female form.haha lame huh.

next was the Gold kart,it was the best among all.Cos we were all trying to take over each other.

My dear was so proud,after the game he kept boasting to me that he was the first in place.ya luh ya luh,dear u are the best!But go get your real driving license first la!haha.

My hao lian dear.=)

Mini spore flyer.poor people than take this one,if not take the one at marina.haha.

I love this shot very much,very artistic like that.haha credits should go to Brandon.Wonder why no pics of him and joseph?cos they were busy taking pictures of us.haha.too bad luh.=p

After another round of other scary rides,mui,joseph and i cant take it anymore.By the way,that brandon chickened out ever since the first ride.Can you believe a big sized man like him didnt touch any of the thrills rides before?He wasted money luh! Dear and za were the braviest and they kept forcing us to take the pirate ship which i hated it the most.But after much pursuasion,we got no choice but to sit along with them.After a few 'swings',mui cant take it anymore and had to use the hand signal to stop the ride.Both of us were feeling so giddy and naesous.I was still quite alright but bestie face turned paled.She puked while she walked.So poor thing.

She was so unwell that i got to help her search her things.haha it seems like im puking in her bag.

Dear was so kind,he paid for the panadols for bestie and joseph paid for the taxi ride for bestie too..both are so gentleman.=)I like such men..

I love the bond we shares...=)

Overall,i still enjoyed myself even though im still feeling giddy right now,yes even for the 2nd day.Im not gonna take such rides again.

Okay,thats all for today..good night!

PS.right now sitting at home,i missed dear and his family so much even though i just saw them few hours ago only.im gonna get bitten by those little creatures again.sigh,goodbye my good complexion.i miss my sk home..i really really do..God,when are you gonna let me end my sufferings?=`( what did i do that you have to punish me this way?Why did you gave me everything and now take it away from me?My family,my brother,my wealth,my house...all gone!I want my life back!

photos updated!!!

2008-04-24T07:47:00.000-07:00

IM BACK!haha.Anyone miss me?Well,im finally like so free to sit infront of the computer for hours just to piece all those outdated pictures together which i had been delaying it for so long.I kept blaming blogger for its lack of efficiency but i realised there is actually another way to post my photos,oh well i know im stupid.But its not too late huh?hehe.Okay,so now im gonna let the pictures start rolling, from the lastest to the....."i dont know when"..too long to rmb i guess.=p

It's wanting and nadia!!!!

Ting,i miss u a lot too!Please takegood care of your health,dont always fall sick then miss our outing.haha.Anyway,it was so fun window-shopping with her at all the branded shops at town.We both are crazy over Gucci,LV,Longchamp,Kate Spade and so much more...haha.

I found this at ah ting's wallet.She still kept it.=)When i saw it,i suddenly missed all the fun times we had especially when ah ting was around.She and the fews are only the one whom made my poly days happy.

And this is how much we had grown,from the innocent looking us to a much matured looking ladies.haha.I really thanks for those who had invented the 'braces'.

Nadia!!!Oh yes,1 piece of good news for me,im in the same class as her for year 3!!!We are like jumping in joy when we realised that we are both in the same class.haha.she's one of my good gf too.hehe.She's grinning so happily because she had just bought a Fred perry bag for herself.happy for her too.=)

She has became such a hottie man!

An outing with sweetie liying.she had a Dior spectacles,so nice!!!!hehe watched movie with her and she gave me my belated xmas pressie,a pair of hand-made earrings.so sweet of her right?=)

Now,its one happy day with my fav girls!!!=)

Sharing and eating together are something we love doing.

We may seems very happy together but our friendship is actually very vunerable.Sometimes i just envied people whom can meet their friends as often as they can but to mine,its impossible.We shall just hope that she would come back to us.

No matter what,i would still treasure these 7 years long of friendship cos i shouldnt just let that one person affect it.=))))

My desiree ai ren,getting hotter and prettier each day.She recommended me to this jap restuarnt but i scolded her cos it tasted so sucky luh!hmph!haha.but i still love her so much,my god sent gift from heaven.=)

Dear and i at this taiwanese beef noodle cafe.Pretty nice.Dear loves beef very much.Dear dear is very nice,he is like my hubby now.I go out with my 'tai-tais',he would then come pick me up at the end of the day,when i go home sleep on the bed,i would see his cutesy face and when i woke up,i would see his bah-bah face again.This has been going on for 2 months and im very much in love with this lifestyle.haha.Though dear dear is my life now,i would never neglect my friends cos no matter rain or shine,they are the ones whom will stick to me till the end especially my Phua mui mui.

She is the most sporting friend i ever had,most jovial,most kind-hearted and of cos the most beautiful one.Im always full of praises for her when people asked me about her and im proud to lable her "my best friend".=)

In ee uncle's new car,on the way to the chalet.Cam-whoring a little bit while dear was engross watchin his idol stephen chow movie.

Dear's bro bday!happy 21st!!

New friends i had make during the party.Naming Celeste,liping and sally.We clicked off really well.haha until we laughed at every point of the conversation.=)

aunty gina's wedding,finally she met her perfect soulmate.i wish her well.=)

One unusual day where i had to wear this outfit to work.really weird but was a fun day for me.haha people thought im a model or what..so pathetic when i said im not..haha.

one of my colleugues.I enjoyed working with them.hehe but too bad im schooling already.

Its 1 am and tmr sch starting at 9am.I gonna be exhuasted tmr.haha so i have to go now.i love the bon jovi song on my blog!!!normally i would change song frequently but this time round i gonna put for long cos everytime i listen to it,i would think of dear.such a meaningful song even though its an old song.hehe.

Dear,this song is dedicated to you.

Looking at the pages of my life
Faded memories of me and you
Mistakes you know
I've made a few
I took some shots and fell from time to time
Baby, you were there to pull me through
We've been around the block a time or two
I'm gonna lay it on the line
Ask me how we've come this far
The answer's written in my eyes

Chorus: Every time I look at you, baby, I see something new
That takes me higher than before and makes me want you more
I don't wanna sleep tonight, dreamin's just a waste of time
When I look at what my life's been comin' to
I'm all about lovin' you

I've lived, I've loved, I've lost, I've paid some dues, baby
We've been to hell and back again
Through it all you're always my best friend
For all the words I didn't say and all the things I didn't do
Tonight I'm gonna find a way

You can take this world away
You're everything I am
Just read the lines upon my face
I'm all about lovin' you

im back

2008-04-05T09:45:00.000-07:00

I guess the previous post must had stunned many of you but everything is fine now.Thanks so much for all of your concerns.Every relationship has a start and also an end but when i realised mine was about to end,it felt so miserable.I do not want to mention how we resolved it but im just glad everything is fine now.My faith in him is back because he had shown great improvement in working out this relationship.I still love you dear.=)

Anyway,i did not had the time to update was because im working almost everyday and im staying at dear's house.It's been more than a month that im lodging there.Reason for it is simple-i hate my home!Dear's home is like heaven to me,everyday,ee aunty would prepared nutritionous breakfast for me and make sure i had a bowl of stewed soup before i headed for bed.Clothes are always washed and ironed in order for me to wear fresh uniform to work everyday.When the weather is humid,i am able to enjoy the air con again.When i headed home after work,i felt excited because i know there's one happy and loving family whom are waiting for me at home.This is exactly what i really want.=)

Dear,i know many saddening things had happened to us that we almost spilt apart.Thank you for being so patient with me all the time and seeing my negative side in a positive way.Whenever you turned up after my work had ended,i got really happy.Thanks for picking me up everyday despite being tired after a long day work.I thought i can never be able to live my life as i always wanted it to be but you actually unknowingly fufilled it.You would always be someone im grateful for.Poeple might said i felt indebted to you because of all the things you did that's why im commited to you but they does not know how each thing you did actually mutiply my love for you bit by bit.Without you,i would not be the strong and confident Josephine typing right here.I love you,baby!Tell me how am i supposed to live without you...

blogger is insane again,i cant post pictures right now so i guess i would do it some other days.Good night everyone!

Enough

2008-03-22T04:28:00.000-07:00

It's been some weeks since i last updated my blog.I got lots to share about but i think i shall do that some other days.I am feeling really low today,things happened too fast and unexpected.I dont want that to happen or neither do i want to mention those ugly two words but...i just cant control my emotions.I hated that feeling that im experiencing over again and again.Why can't he just admit and accept it wholeheartedly that what he said or did was wrong but instead tried to always covering it up because of "me" and just "me." "That's what im most furious about,in the first place he was wrong but whenever we clarified it,im always drag into the picture,"all because he was afraid i would be angry."

It is pointless now.I dont want to argue anymore.

When i lefted on the cab,my tears started rolling down.Memories were telling me to stop and give it a second thought but i knew i had enough of these.

It may seems easy to mention those two words but leaving you is more devastating as i had thought.I still appreciate what you had did for me.Maybe im too a perfectionist.Or maybe im a horrible gf who gave you shutter in whatever you does.

I still loves you a lot but sorry doesnt really work for me anymore...

Suddenly,i miss your calling me of "dear",your playfulness,your cuddle from my back,your mum and...

I'm all alone again.The thought of me doing and handling things all by myself seems really frightening but im not gonna be a dependent girl anymore.

I will walk the road by myself...

horoscopeS!

2008-03-03T23:02:00.000-08:00

Photos took while working with an qi.

Time flies!Just looked at the date and i realised it's march and it stated 4th which meant that dear and i had just passed 18months of courtship.Oh dear,we had forgotten all about it(it's only after reading tal's blog then i realised)!LOL.Anyway happy 18 months baby!

Life has it's ups and downs and so does our relationship.We always have arguments here and there but we always tried to resolve it somehow.Yesterday,i was pretty upsat by something and given my implusive character,we fighted over the phone but im glad that he came over and hushed me down with his soft whisper of apology.I just hated the feeling of him leaving me halfway for some other reasons,its just felt exactly like how my mum used to leave my dad and i for her majong session during our family outing.It can really send one's blood boiling.I guess that's one reason why my dad got sick of her.I mean if you had decided to spend a day with someone,make sure you do it and not just leave because of some "other reasons" that doesnt seems that important.If you feel that you are not prepared for such commitments,then be single,that's the best solution,really!

However,on the lighter note,dear and i are still very much deeply in love with each other.hehe.He never fails to dote on me.Despite how tired he is,he still tries to bring me go where ever i wanted to and i always have 'discount' on whatever i buy cos dear always pay a portion of it.haha.

Yesterday,my dear 24hr gf-to-be Crystal actually accompanied me do my eyelash extensions.haha.Though it was a short trip,im still happy cos its been so long since we had a one to one girl talk's session.We were like aunties in the past,gossiping here and there.I seriously miss her,(mk,can you stop snatching her away from us?)LOL.I told dad that ah tal and i were 2 lucky girls cos we have 2 lovely bfs and most importantly our bf's families treated us very well.I love Cancer guys!(not that dying "cancer" hor,it's horoscope luh!)hehe.

ok some sharings about horoscopes:

Leo girls(ME)

For a Leo woman it’s difficult to put into life her romantic dream and secret ambition: to find a man that will raise her to the throne she has the right to be. Usually she is trying to get married to a man who is on the top of the social ladder. She may be looking for a long time for the man she really wants: an intellectual who has enough money to make her look great and be the queen of the house. She thinks love is a trump-card in the game of life and she may hold in her emotions to achieve success. (yes!this is damm true!)

A Leo woman thinks she is beautiful and often it’s really so. She is afraid of giving herself physically because of the fear to loose her beauty. Love horoscope Leo warns about possible nervous problems at about 30 years old as a result of marriage for money.

Cancer boys (DEAR)

Cancer is the most sensitive and emotional of all the 12 signs. He may lead the most exiting or the most terrible life. His success as a person depends on how he’ll solve the problem of relationship with his mother and whether he’ll become independent from her or not. (aiyoh,really leh,dear is such a mummy's boy!=p)

Love horoscope Cancer asserts that he sometimes rejects the physiological aspect of love. It’s easier for a woman to be a Cancer than for a man, as women become mothers themselves.
In youth Cancer is a romantic person and dream of ideal love. He is a calm water sign. His imagination usually passes ahead of his life experience. When he sees his first desire fulfilled, his sensitiveness and deep feelings make him a gorgeous tender lover.

In every sexual relation he is looking for exceptional striking love, understanding and support. In return, he is ready to give himself and to lavish care and tenderness upon his partner.
Love horoscope Cancer warns that this romantic person may be tyrannical and possessive. But usually he is the first to feel the blow or disappointment; he leaves the hostile world for the company of his mother or looks for rescue in solitude. (hahaha,mother again!)

A Cancer man may be quiet, peaceful and simple; his love is faithful and firm. Such a man will make a wonderful husband and father, devoted to his family. (I guess this is pretty true)

But Cancer may also be capricious, delicate, complicated and enigmatic. This type of man creates problems for himself. He may be wandering from one woman to another, looking for his ideal bride, or suffering from fatal unrequited love.

Love horoscope Cancer predicts that some will find a woman, who is older and more experienced than he himself. She will be capable of revealing his lyrical and philosophic potential. And she will do it by means of conciliation and support. In that case the feedback of Cancer is enormous. (feedback??hahaha)

LEO - CANCER (DEAR & I)

Leo is in a mood for accidental romance, while Cancer prefers serious relationship. Cancer is willing something more than simply sexual relationship; he wants to have a stable union and to be taken care of by his affectionate partner. Leo is ready to that if he gets a love of Cancer in return, and also some admiration from his side. If it doesn’t happen, they are not likely to understand each other and to make a good couple.

I guess its enough for these horoscopes,realistically,in order for a relationship to work out,it still very much dependent of both parties.

I realised when i do not have a digicam,i kept snapping away but now when i have,i just chuck it one side.Damm,i need to use it!i need to!

By the way,while browsing my old class photos,i realised dear's brother gf is actually my pri school classmate!!!!OMG!Can you believe it?hahaha...The world is so small man!

Tomorrow is back to work.It's getting bored and i wana watch "2 faces of my girlfriend!"Byebye!

Worry

2008-02-24T20:58:00.000-08:00

A couple of days ago, while sleeping,dear's phone was bombarded with lots of phone calls and messages.Reluntantly,he picked up the call and a few seconds later,his eyes were wide opened and i knew something was wrong.Our secondary school classmate had passed away on a motorbike accident.The moment i heard it,i was filled with anguish.It is not as though that ex-classmate is someone i knew very well,it was dear whom im concerned.I told dear that im afraid what if he was the next one and dear scolded me for my foul mouth.But how can i not be worry?Everyone told me how motor is dangerous and not to sit on it so frequently.I guess i should not be so worry and i had think too much.I must tell myself that dear would still be alive and kicking just to see me everyday.After these,i realised how important my families and friends are to me.Alright,shall not let this tamper my emotion any further.=)

So these few days,i was staying over at dear's house cos partly i wanna be there for him and also it was nearer to my workplace.Dear's face was shagged cos he was out the whole time almost everyday at the wake just to send his final bid to his good friend.see,guys can be such a loyal person.I also did went to the wake and everyone was feeling so down.Many ex-punggol students were there to pay their last respect and it was really a solemn day."Jiao bin" also went down,"jiao bin" refers to Crystal,i named her that because the deceased once teased her using that during our high school days.She's not the only one,even i got mocked before.He was known to be someone whom is good at "soot" people but ironically he had a great deal of friends as well.From what i had known from dear,he was someone fun to hang out with and was a very loyal person.I really send my greatest condolenses to him and hope he lives well in another world.

Recently,i had been busy due to my diligency in work.I wanted to earn lotsa of money this month as for the next vacation i'll be having my attachment.i hope to use this money to buy those necessity for it such as clothes,handbags and etc.You know girls are vain in nature.LOL.Dear's mum is really so nice cos she has been asking relatives around for me about companies that are willing to hire students having attactment.And she's been making breakfast for me every morning.Im really so in love with dear's family that i disliked returning home now.=( i detest having to bear the coldness my parents have everyday and i hate not having a home that doesnt seems like a decent one to me.I will only find peace and comfort when my family is in harmony.These few days were also busy with ee's uncle and aunty family's birthday dinner.Eat and eat non-stop.so fat luh!= (

I need to get back to bed now,work's tml again.Im gonna work hard!I wanna have lots of money in my pocket.i know my blog has been lacking of photos and it's getting dull,i'll update soon!

i love you dear but can you not break any promise again...it really saddens me.You are such a mr.nice but you always make empty promises and super indecisive.I need a strong man!Sigh good night!

Work?NO NO!

2008-02-21T22:52:00.000-08:00

Went cycling with Nad,becky,jlai and my dear!Was pretty fun.Hehe.I was so jealous when i saw nad skating flawlessly on the track,oh ya she skated instead of cycle.Anyway she promised to teach me and i make sure she does!hehe.

My calf and thigh areas were so sore that i cant do my usual workout but im kinda happy cos it gave me an excuse not to exercise.LOL.Im such a lazy person.

Saw the Sworovski bracelet for like the 5th time?I really feel like taking home but i need to bear with it.Money dont comes easy.

Anyway was really happy to hear that Singapore would be the host for the youth olympics 2010.So proud!I think i really should aim for the tourism sector.Im like so indecisive of my ambition,i really have no idea of becoming what.One morning,i can wake up telling my parents i wanna be a teacher then the next morning,i can changed and said i wanna work in a marketing line.OMG!Josephine,what do you really want?=(Sigh mentioning about work,it sent chills down my spine.The thought of entering the working society makes me so frighten but i know i cant cos i cant be a student forever.I really wished im still a little girl who is free of worries.=(

Got to go.Bye!

NO.1 Dear in the world!

2008-02-19T08:47:00.000-08:00

Today i was all day at home cos dear was mugging and i wanted to be makeup-less.My complexion is like shit now,pimples popping out like that's no tomorrow.How sad can i be huh?I guess i had been consuming too much junk food and not taking care of my health.So today im a good girl,i prepared healthy food and did some workout.Well,i hope this regime last cos i have very poor discipline and my weaknesses are simply FOOD FOOD FOOD!!!That's why im never able to slim down to my desire weight.Argh,shall put this aside,it just make my morale go low.=(

I shall do some playbacks on what i had did a few days ago.On Sunday,ee aunty cooked and invited her relatives over to her house for a CNY dinner and of course im invited cos im her dear dear daughter in law to be.LOL.The house was filled with people giggling and chatting away.Ee aunty was busy cooking while dear and i were trying hard to entertain that little devil whom just cant seems to stop fidgeting around.little devil=his cousin.She is super hyper-active like my previous jack russell dog!cannot stand!haha.The food ee aunty prepared were so appetising and it simply fits so well on my tastebuds.=)

After that hearty meal,i decided to go supper with dear cos it's been so long since we did that.So he requested joining his friends and i agreed on account that his friend has a car.haha.I know im materialistic and i wont deny that.i really hope dear can get his car license soon!I want to be driven around without having to worry of getting my hair dangles or vexing over where to place my shopping bags.So we went to watch jumper and had a very horrible supper across Cine.I was trying very hard to open my eyes and lucikly i did not doze off in the movie if not i would be feeling guilty of wasting the ticket money.Im really not a night person.Can anyone teach me to ton the night?I guess i would not want to learn also if not i would end up having panda eyes like my ah buey bf!hahaha.

Mentioning about my ah buey bf,i realised he is damm cute.He can be so child-like sometimes which i cant resist myself from smiling.He is such a best friend to me.He is someone i would immediatly thought first when something happens,be it a sad one,a happy one or just a daily casual conversation.Sometimes i felt that "sisterhood" is all a bullshit!Friends simply just dissapear out of your life because of other commitments such as bfs,new friends,work and etc.But boys never!They stayed by their friends and tried to dig out some time for them even though how busy their lifes are.I really take my hat of them and impress by their loyalty in friendships.I do not blame my friends cos im one of them too but im trying to improve on that and i hope they do.

But for now i know that dear is my bestest friend and my soulmate.Only he can tahan my "chilli padi" side of me and give me whatever i like.E.g one fine day,we were having cup noodles and i choosed curry while dear was seafood.After a few mouthful of it,i realised dear's one was nicer and when i told him that,he immediately exchanged it with me.I was so touched!I really love him so much and i feel very blissful whenever he is around.Im so lucky to have him cos without him,my life would not be as colourful and with him im able to know more lovely people such as his family members.I really feel so attached to them now.Sometimes or most of the time,i just wished my family could be as cosy and warm as them.

This is such a long entry but i just wish to list my everyday thoughts down so that in months or years to come,i can return and reminise about my past.Goodnight everybody!

Valentine's day

2008-02-16T05:43:00.000-08:00

Happy Valentine's everyone!Valentine's is a day to express your love to that special people including families and friends.No matter how small in size or value the presents are,it doesnt matter at all.As long as you put your heart and soul in deciding and giving it,it is priceless.Take for example my sweet dear,i thought there would be no flowers this vday but this silly boy actually bought a simple bouquet of roses for me.Though it is simple and it's not as BIG as before,i still love it.Simplicity is always beauty to me.=)must be wondering where we celebrated?Well,Vday itself,we went for dinner at Ichiban sushi and followed by kbox. While the next day was a weekend getaway in Conrad hotel,yes singapore!haha.We spent a lil just for the experience of a moment of our own with no obstrutions and the luxurious facility.We just want to be king and queen for a day.LOL.So first was checking in!Then we were lead to our room.The room was indeed beautiful.I was so excited that i kept snapping away while dear swept himself in that cozy,big bed. So for nowi shall let the pictures run the show...

Settled our bags down before we start exploring the room.We were amazed by the breath-taking scenary outside.We even saw fireworks at night,how romantic aint it?

He was enjoying the bird eye view from the 11th floor.A shot together with the simple,delicate curtains.Resting on the sofa.

Trying out the super comfy bed.
At the same time,having some fun..dont get the wrong idea huh.hahaCheck out the toliet.Everything is there for your convenience and comfort.Bathtub was amazing!
Making some coffee to get the instant perk for the day!

Smiling cos we were about to do some lil shopping at the malls nearby.

'byebye',im leaving!=)and 'hello' we were back!Bought pizza,roasted chicken,sushi and etc.ate to our heart's content.hehe and i even did a lil shopping at m)phosis..

Next day,we went for a breakfast buffet at Oscar.It was really sumptous and we wish our stomach were bigger cos there were too many varities to choose from.Their waffles were one of the best!

After breakfast,it was time to check out.Some good things must end somehow but the experiences and memories we had there would always remain in our mind..

Message to dear:

Thank you dear for making me felt like a princess for a day.Though im always the one to plan our dates,you were always accomodating and never fail to make it goes well.I realised that it is enough.I know you had tried your best to be a romantic boyfriend(though you hasnt been one yet=p) but you dont have to anymore.I realised romantic-ness cant be cultivated overnight therefore i shall not push you any further.Im asking too much from you which i dont think it's right.I just wish well for our relationship and hopefully we would be able to celebrate vday over the years ahead.I love you!

Presents for him,he actually opened it before vday itself.kang chiong fella!

Gifts from secret admirers.haha no la!balloon was from sweetie Liying.she is so kind la!she always buy me lil things and remember me even though we were just same class for one module.so touch!And becky too..hehe..she's a very sweet friend just like the lolipops.hehe

Movie Marathon!

2008-02-13T02:22:00.000-08:00

Dear is sleeping right now which he shouldnt cos he has 3 EXAMS next week!He really cant study at home cos he can cook up a lot of excuses for himself.Tsk!

Well,yesterday was my last paper!Im a free bird again!=D So after my last paper,i rushed down to meet my pretty bestie.She actually bought a same dress as me!Great mind think alikes huh?No no,it should be best friends think alike.LOL.We watched Kung Fu dunk together.As usual,in the midst of the movie,we cracked ourselves up with things that arnt meant to be funny e.g.linking a fugly actor to someone whom we known.Mean right?haha but that's us!We can giggle like some nutcase and still nobody will get our jokes.Anyway,the movie was great!Jay chou is so ke ai with his short bangs.Keke,double eyelid guys make me drool.:p

After movie,she accompanied me to buy for dear a Valentine's gift.We scouted together and finally set my decision on one brand which we do not know.haha but it is still expensive ok?The rest were like so over my budget and not nice!It was a belt which dear had been wanting it for some time.I hope he wears it on vday.

And guess what's dear gonna buy for me?A LONGCHAMP Bag!Yay!Im so happy!hehe.Girls just cant get enough of bags.I told bestie that i cant bring myself to use those cheap bags anymore,i need classy and lasting bags!haha then she replied me not to teach her "bad".Cos she's afraid she might cant resist getting an expensive bag soon too.=p

Soon after,dear called to ask if we were interested in watching Rambo with him and his classmates cos he had complimentary tickets!And his classmate were actually having a crush on bestie cos she's so pretty.haha.I have too many beautiful possesions huh,even my best friend is one of them?At first,she wasnt willing to go but after using some reverse pyschology,she agreed.And this is what i had said that changed her mind "Why not you just pass me all your cosmetics and clothes?You just go out with a naked face and wear anyhow la,dont come out and attract guys since you are so scared.So pretty for what?no use!"LOL.So mean right?But anyhow it still works!that's a good start bestie!haha.

Both were so shy when they first met each other.haha,dear and i kept teasing her.So funny!How nice if she has a bf and i have too.We can go double dating or even triplet dating(including ah tal and mk).haha,i think too much i guess.But i wont rush her la.

Ok,i need to watch tv.Good bye!=)

New year SPECIAL!

2008-02-09T10:28:00.000-08:00

Gong xi fa cai everyone!Another lunar new year has arrived and in other words there are plenty of life happenings to look forward to.Chinese new year isnt all about celebrating but it's also a time to catch up with kins and friends whom you hardly meet at all.It's all about renuion,that's what i like about chinese.Though sometimes chinese culture and tradition may be too overly supertiscious,it do make sense at most of the time.I'm so proud to be a chinese!=)

Okay,i shall just go about my enjoyable chinese new year spent.

New year's eve:

Dear and i went to Chinatown for a last grasp of the once a year nostalgia feeling and also to get into the mood of the upcoming lunar new year.We were squeezing under the hot, scorching sun but still enjoyed it afterall.Then returned to my home for a renuion lunch with my parents.Yes,you heard me it was together with my parents!Though there wasnt any conversation between them,i still felt happy.It was like a dream come true.=)I love my daddy & mummy!After my side,i went along with mum to dear's place for a steamboat dinner.It felt so great having dinner with dear's family cos they are so much like my second family now.I love them so much too!hehe.

On the way to dear's house,look so cool huh he?Im in e taxi btw.lol

Chu yi (also known as the 1st day of new year):

1st stop was my second aunt's place.Saw my most childish and inhuman cousins whom aged like 39 or 45?Inhuman cos they dont have a sense of sympathy or great understanding towards people's feelings.Still called themselves a devote catholic?F*CK YOU!!!I dont need these kind of people in my life!Shoo...Ok enough said of such people,it just waste my breath only.Had a sumptous peranakan lunch and a lil chat up with my second aunt.She's the best!=)By the way,the senseless people i mentioned above are actually not blood-related to me.hahaha ironic isnt it?Get out of this Goh family!

The authentic GOH FAMILY!hehe.Spot the 3 brothers!

My dog lookalike brother.haha

2nd stop was my Grandaunt's house.She is like my grandma to me and i heard she looks exactly like my late grandma.I saw a lot of my dad's cousins.They are really sweet people!hehe.

From the left:my two distant cousins and uncle,dad's cousin.Look like my dad isnt it?

3rd stop was my big aunt's place,the family which i detest and mentioned above.I only sat there for like 20minutes and off i went.=)

4th stop was dear's house!=D =D The place which seems more like heaven to me.haha.Bai nian with dear's parents and they both gave me a $50 ang bao each!haha so happy!

My handsome yet insensitive bf!My beloved,smart and prettier Peng!No ang baos for them,only marshmellows.haha

And last stop was at ee aunty's sister house.Yeah,i followed them to bai nian too.Finally saw all dear's maternal side.It's like a replenisment of a lost family closeness for me.And i realised one of dear's lil cousin looked exactly like him when he was young.So cute!

Yes!thats him,look like my dear right?So handsome!hehe

Dear's bro and his gf.His mum born good-looking people.hahaEE uncle and aunty chatting.a family potrait!haha.can u see my daughter and son?lou yu sheng arh!!!

Chu er:

1st stop was at my mum's kampong neighbour house.It was like directly opposite my old sengkang home.It made me feels terribly homesick whenever something reminds me of my old home.My queen-sized bed,my air con,my door which had full of papers sticking on it,my stairs and etc.Sigh.Anyway,it was boring there cos i do not know anyone.

2nd stop was back to dear' house.mum went there to bai nian to his parents.=)

3rd stop was at aunty esther and uncle david's house.Hehe the place which consists of people whom bring me lots of fond memories.I always look forward to aunty esther's teochew cum indonesian food.lol

Aunty ester and uncle david!mum is super funny!

4th stop was at my big aunt place,my mum's sister.Took hong bao from her then left already.haha so realistic huh?

Dear and i!

mum and i

5th stop was at ee uncle's side.Saw many cousins of dear's.They were all mostly around the same age as us.And as usual,i got lots of ang bao this year.haha

last stop was at dear's godmother house.It was very crowded and we had sharkfins soup.But dear accidentally spilled it on me.Totally spoilt my mood immediately.He always has butter fingers and i dont know why but i know he dont mean it.

Chu san:

We went to watch "PS.I love you".It has a very good storyline.It moved me to tears almost every minute.Imagine your love one causes your devastation but at the same time pull you through with all his prepared letters of guides to move on with life and all the encouragements,isnt it amazing and sweet?I give a 6 out of 5 stars.=)

After movie,we went to dear's dad customer house.Ee uncle went round greetings his collegues and friends while ee aunty entertained the "wifes".haha.Even dear was busy chatting while pengpeng and i just ate to our filled with the exotic asian food.I can forsee dear and myself in that senario in the future.haha.Following my husband around can be so much fun!

Then dear brought me to his ah bengs friends house.haha.ah bengs cos they seems rowdy to me and when they speak,a lot of vulgurities spilled out.Maybe they are boys?Most of them own a bike and when they go out,they rode together.I know dear enjoys hanging out with them cos everytime when he is about to meet them,you can see anxiety on his face.Sometimes i felt uphappy because he seems more interested in being with his friends than me.hai ya i know im thinking too much but which bloody gf seems happy about their bfs going out.Most gfs are selfish,they want their bfs to themselves.Im not making an untrue assumption,it is proven by experience.So what's the solution?Bfs can still go out but they must live with the fact that gfs would however still be unhappy thus if you cant stand it,DONT EVER FIND A GF!unless you found a gf whom doesnt disagree to whatever you do and you dominate over her,then i would salute to you!

THE END of the story!Bye bye.

Random pics:

My beautiful nails and bag.

a neoprint consists of beautiful people.haha.

CNY!!!

2008-02-04T00:28:00.000-08:00

Dear and i like to dee-siao each other by taking photos in a full zoom mode.LOL!We looked like a hua chi!

He look so much like a freak!

I love this picture,so sweet!

I love my beautiful shawl!I want an authenic one soon!

3 more days to Chinese new year!!!Im counting down!=)Tml is the last paper for this week.Damm thrilled!

Yesterday dear and i went to watch the first preview of CJ7.STEPHEN CHOW!Dear's favourite!It was very lame but very touching at the last scene,i cant help but kept tearing.However,dear and i still very much prefered his old movies like the "bo luo bo luo mi!!!"So funny!haha.

Oh did i mentioned that a few days ago was our 1 year 4 months anniversary?Time passes so quickly.I bought a super "cute" card for dear until he did not dare to display openly on his shelves.LOL.While dear bought for me chocolates and sweets.Although i do not fancy chocs anymore but i still ate it cos it was from dear.I must appreciate it and not complain that's fattening.haha.But hor,best still dont buy la,i prefer diamond rings leh dear..haha

Recently,my skin condition isnt very good.I wonder what triggers it but I somehow suspect that my "feng mo" returned."feng mo" is known as shingles in english.

Explaination:
Shingles is a disease caused by the varicella-zoster virus - the same virus that causes chickenpox. After you have chickenpox, the virus stays in your body. It may not cause problems for many years. As you get older, the virus may reappear as shingles. Unlike chickenpox, you can't catch shingles from someone who has it.
Early signs of shingles include burning or shooting pain and tingling or itching, usually on one side of the body or face. The pain can be mild to severe. Blisters then form and last from one to 14 days. If shingles appears on your face, it may affect your vision or hearing. The pain of shingles may last for weeks, months or even years after the blisters have healed.
There is no cure for shingles. Early treatment with medicines that fight the virus may help. These medicines may also help prevent lingering pain. A vaccine may prevent shingles or lessen its effects. The vaccine is for people 60 or over who have had chickenpox but who have not had shingles

It is so itchy that i cant sleep at times.And I cant seems to understand why there would be a relapse cos i always feel that my immune system is much stronger than before.I just pray that it wont leave any scars.=(

Just chatted with zaza online and im beginning to miss my 3 girls badly.Seeing them always reminds me of the times we shared together.We were like sworn sisters.If education were to allow us to be in the same vocation,how nice would that be huh?I realised the reality of life is so ugly and so scary.You get to see all kinds of people.You can have many friends but how many close and good friends do you really have?I always feel that it's the quality that counts and not the quantity that really matters.But than again if we were just wishing that everything can just remains unchanged and nicely maintained,we would not learn how to step out to the superficial world and grow.I bet this is what we called,life.

On my 17th birthday..look at how much we have grown..i have grown fatter but prettier la.hahaha.still have the cheek to say!tsk tsk fatty josephine

Alright,I think i gonna study for my next paper.Good luck to me!=)

Life happenings!

2008-02-03T00:43:00.000-08:00

Satisfied look!=D

Hello kitty!!!

Ready to pack!

Sizzling hot!yum yum

These are for the kimchi fried rice!

These are the ingredients for pork cutlet!Quite simple actually.

Oh mine!look at my dirty mirror!hehe

Hehe,mirror reflection!i realised i look better with my frindge down.

My groupmates!On the surface we may look nice bt deep down, a lot of conflicts happened!

I had been on high spirits lately cos i had none other than dear's accompany. All presentations were over and im left with only 3 tests to go through.No exams at all!=) On thurdays,i woke up early in the morning to cook for dear as a form of apology for the previous day.I whipped Kimchi fried rice and japanese pork cutlet,all recipes were adapted from the internet!haha.Internet can be such a good source for information.After i had cook finished,i packed in a hello kitty lunch box.It was so cute.haha.I felt like a japanese school girl bringing my ai xin bian dan to my boyfriend.So after school i rushed down to his school and offered him the food which has full of love for him.And of course im so impressed of myself cos dear loves it and said it is very good for a first try.

After meeting dear,i went to wanting's rescue cos she's been finding someone to shop with her for her CNY clothes.hehe.Becky came along too.Anyway,happy belated birthday becky!=)It was so nice shopping with them.Ting and i had endless topic to talk about.I seriously miss her so much.She is such a nice friend to hang out with.I can be myself when im with her.When it was evening time,dear came to pick me up.Mum said to me "wah,you go everywhere,your bf also must pick you ar?" I replied "of course la,i opened my eyes BIG and choose the right husband!"LOL.Than mum laughed "oh then you mean,i opened my eyes too small lah?"

YESH!Im very fortunate cos i have a very nice bf whom take care of my everything.=)My bf is not only handsome,he also has a heart made of gold.

Yesterday i bought an imitation Gucci belt and i love it so much.hehe.I really love Gucci so much now!I feel like having a tote Gucci bag now.Oh no,i cant!I realised i had possessed a lot of things already,a sony digicam,a Gucci bag,a nice looking bf and many else more.What more could i ask for huh?I should learn to be contented.

Oh damm,i have not even studied for my test tomorrow and im going out in 2 hours time.How?well never mind,dont stress yourself,relax!its just 4 chapters,i can do it!=D

ok bye!

Sunshine & moon!

2008-01-29T04:22:00.000-08:00

It's time for some update!Had been really busy but not anymore cos most important stuffs had been done.Oh well,chinese new year is coming in less than 10 days time and i have yet to buy any clothes but never mind cos i had bought something which i had been eyeing on for a long time.:)

It is.....

A GUCCI BAG!!!

Even the paper bag inside has the monogram of GG.haha.I love it man!

This is not some invitation card but a holder for you to put your receipt.Cool!

This is what i bought at first but it totally dissapoint me.=(

Nonetheless, dear got this super hot Polo from Burberry!When he wore it,it just make me goes wild!LOL!NICE!

i did not won some lottery or anything alright?Dear and mum helped me too foot some of it so im very grateful oo them.hehe.They know it had been on my wishing list for a long time.Thanks!I love you!haha.At first i bought a burberry bag but i didnt expect to receive such poor quality.thanks god they allowed me to refund.Mum nagged at me and said that i should had listened to her cos before i decided to buy a designer bag,mum had already told me to either get a LV or Gucci.She said burberry is lousy!But burberry is my all time favourite,i always wished to own something from there.

Anyway,im really happy.Now i had fufilled one of my "material" wish so the next one im gonna get done is....

Celebrate Vday at Continential hotel with my DEAR DEAR DEAR=)
A trip to Bangkok
A pair of Dior's earrings
A Crystal ring from Sworoski
Maybe a Damier canvas speedy

Hehe.yeah im beginning to love good brands but firstly i have to save!!!

For now,i wanna talk about dear,just him only.keke.Dear and i had been really lovey dovey lately,although we still bicker here and there but it's lesser now.I love weekend so much cos i can get to sleep with him and wake up in the morning to see him.He is like my sunshine and my moon,following me whenever i go.I really like him so much.hehe.I still remember this sentence"can you be my stead?" hahaha.Dear ar,why you so silly last time?'Stead' is like so cheena and childish lor.Till now, i still dont get it why did you use this word.Never mind i understand "U got a sweet mouth"LOL.Anyway i just want to say that i really love you.I want to marry you so that i can see you every day and night!haha

Muacks muacks...

Fat jojo

2008-01-22T07:01:00.000-08:00

I'm so so gonna lose weight!!!!

Today i finally had a clear look on how my body looks like cos i always spend time gromming on my face and sad to say not on my body.=(When i saw my naked body,i was like OMG!It's time i really need to divert my beauty attention to my body.I always mentioned that im gonna lose weight but my plan always ruined within 1 day or even less cos when people compliment me that im pretty,i forgot about everything and just enjoy my food.I really miss the days when i was so determined,waking up everyday to exercise and only eating vegetables or fruits.I want to return back to those days.Sometimes i feel that dear is a main cause too cos when i know that there is an opposite sex who appreciates me for who i am,my motivation level just died immediately.I looked at my old photos and compared it to now, i realised i had fatten a lot.=`(

So i have made a final decision,im gonna strictly stick by to my plan. No matter what occasions or what temptations i gonna have soon,i promise not to be affected by it.I must improve my self-esteem!

I gonna sweat like hell and eat as little as i can.

dear,please go through with me and help me out,do not sympathise me by encouraging me to eat.I know you love me,so mould me to be your fantasy girl like Fiona xie.LOL.Too ambitious isnt it?But i still like Rihanna,my ever dream body.She does not only owns a pretty face,she got a fabalous bod too!

Enough for today,i need to tuck in early to jog tml and also to hand in my project.

Good night!

Lady luck is with me!

2008-01-17T21:52:00.000-08:00

ARGHHHHHHH!!!!!I wanna scream not because im depressed or feeling vexed.I wanna scream because i got my pay which consisted of more than 1k and i won a T650i!!!!Muahahahaha.Please scream with me!!ARGHHHHHHH!!!LOL.

Ok,i've regained my composure.Well,yesterday dear,angel,ah mei and i went together to our company gathering unwillingly.Why unwillingly?cos we were forced by uncertain situation.Before that day itself,my boss phoned me because he thought i went round spreading to others that we could collect the pay but in fact i didnt.Instead,i argued with him and insisted that im at no fault and instead i push all the blames to him.Should i say im brave or what but it was my first time talking to my boss and i just went on ranting with a harsh tone without considering that he is my superior or whether i will be sack by him or not.I just knew that i needed to say my piece and get back whatever my friends and i deserved!

so back to yesterday.The gathering was quite lame because of those ice-breakers game which ah mui and i hated the most.Only summer seems to enjoy it cos she loves socialising around unlike us.haha.But we just tolerated because we knew the money is worth waiting for.I had been with my company for more than a year but sad to say i never attend any gathering before.yesterday was my first time and should i said im extremely lucky cos i won a handphone which im like super surprised lah!Ah mui won 50bucks too while dear and summer won molten brown shower gel and movie tickets!Other than that,our pay that we got was for 2 months and not 1 which all of them felt that it must be my harshness that allowed us to get more money.haha so please dont say being implusive is bad cos sometimes it does help in certain circumstances.well,im so proud of myself,Ms Lawyer Goh.=p To add on,it was simply a stunning evening yesterday!

For now,i cant wait to end the school semester and enjoy my holidays!:D

Absent-minded!

2008-01-14T01:04:00.000-08:00

Today it was a bad day cos the absent minded me lefted my phone under the classroom desk.i only remembered when i was on my way home.Thanks god,there wasnt any lesson after 1pm so i turn back and i managed to get my phone back.I should not be late for class in the first place if not i wouldnt be so panic and everything just slipped off my mind.

Dear and i had been working which i kinda like it cos it gave me a reason or an excuse to stay at his house so that i can hitch a ride from him.LOL.I knew mum wasnt happy though but i still cant help myself from seeing dear's face everyday.Anyway,i got a pair of Stephen chow new movie for free!So happy!The manager is so kind even though i always "bully" him verbally.haha.I really love working with them.The manager always teased me by saying that the dealer super dotes on me,always helping me to hit my target.:)I guess the fortune teller said is true,i'm always the boss's favourite person.No one will sack me,only i will sack the person!hahaha.By the way,did i mention that i got a glib tongue and great bootlicking skills?:p

Yesterday,dear's family and i watched the taiwan singing competition超級星光大道.I always heard about it but never watched it before.How i wished i had cable TV at home.It will win your heart when a talented stranger sang flawlessly on stage even though he may look fugly.I really love this song sang by these 2 super talatend chaps,新不了情.Very powerful vocals chords they have!!!It is my all time favourite chinese oldies!I told dear that if he were to propose to me by singing this song,i will definately marry him without any hesitation.haha. http://http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wQdiaorSJ_k I quite like 蕭敬騰 even though 楊宗緯 is more popular cos he look so shuai in his new hairstyle.keke.

Ok,i need to clear my laundry already if not mummy is gonna nag and nag.:)

First,first,first..

2008-01-10T07:19:00.000-08:00

Hello,this shall be my very first post of the day. Do not ask me why i changed my link again cos i just feel like doing so.A new blog, a new beginning. That's what i thought!

Well,i know my blog looks really simple but i feel that simplicity is still the best. Sweet and simple,that's me now!

Yesterday, dear and i had a big argument that i almost ended the relationship. But all thanks to dear's persistent and sincerity that had instantly moved me and made me reconsider my rash decision.After having some recollections over our relationship , it made us treasure one another better.We realised we had neglected a lot of things when our relationship has starts maturing.However mentioning about our stupidity in the past just made us giggled.Actually, im really fortuanate to have dear as my boyfriend.He is the only one who can tolerate my hot-temperness and love me for who i am.

Today,i finally went for a run which i really felt the need to do so. I had been eating a lot these few days due to the stress i incurred from my never-ending projects.I decided to put a stop to my bad eating habits today and return back to my healthy lifestyle.Dear was there for me.He is like my personal trainer,pushing me yet at the same time gave me a lot of encouragement which i really really appreciate it a lot.:)

While washing up,dear told me something that made me really happy. He mentioned that whenever he went out with his butch of friends and when there are girls whom need a lift,he always declined them because he will only leaves the back seat of the bike for me.hehe.Now the thought of it will still makes me smile.:)

Alright,i guess i should turn in because i need to continue with my damm projects tomorrow.I really cant wait for everything to end.Good night!

Some random pics took during the day to the hospital:

say the truth,who's prettier?my brother's gf or me?LOL
My lovely friends who are always there for me!ILY girls!